STop breastfeeding?

eversince i know i want to be a mother, i always wanted to fully breastfeed my child.
i thought its easy peasy.. ye lah selak je kan, apa yg susah sgt
mom always tell me stories of the hardship of being a mother, including how her child (termasuk aku lah tu) will bite the nipples until they bled, or how the breast become so engorge she developed mastitis.
but i never scared me. i stil thought it' nothing much.
when i finally have my first child, alhamdulillah i manage to feed her, eventhough i was late by 3 days..
i tried to get her suck but i hardly saw anything. as if i has no milk. baby cried and everyone will pester me to give her formula. i give up and formula she had. when the masseur came later, suddenly there's so much milk came out - during the massage, the shoot like a fountain. i was so confused, and frustrated. i know they'r in there! but why they wont came out!! why?! why!
aisyah was warded due to jaundice that day, so when the masseur leave i tried pumping the milk to bring it to hospital. i only manage to get less than 1oz..
few haours later i pump again.. and again..
still i only manage <2oz.. until  my mom ask me to stop : your' going to spoil your breast later!
the pumping actually did good, when aisyah finally reunited with me, she sucks well and my  milk production increased. im one happy mother.
but once a day i will put her on formula. especially for night feed when im too tired to move.
people said i MUSt, or it'l be problem when i start working  later.
so aisyah grew well.. she had no transition problem because she's accustomed to the bottle at such early age. i'l give her direct whenever im with her and i pumped her daily stocks until she's about 9mths. my milk production start to decrease by then.
but i was not 100% contended because i wanted my child to be 100% breastfed.
aisyah is fully off my breast when i found out i was pregnant with aliya. she;s almost 2 at that time.
its not really hard since she only had me for her sleep.
still it wrecks my heart to see her wailing. its disturbing enough for everybody. my husband almost gave in.
alhamdulillah we passed it.

when aliya came, i'm so determined to fully breastfeed her. i even bought my self 2 sets of breastpump (1 i hardly use and plan to resell it)
but history repeats itself, my first 3 days went 'milkless'. yess they say there'l be no milk but colostrum. but i hardly saw any liquid came out!
aliya too, was warded for jaundice. but this time i produce lots more milk, i managed to get her almost half bottle, just enough for her feed.
few weeks before the end of my maternity leave, i began to put her on bottle schedule. she's okay.
when i returned to work, i manage to get her daily stocks covered, but sometimes the nursery will have to give her formula if they'r not enough. its good since we dont have to worry about her milk supply. except that i had to really 'work hard' and must follow a strict pumping schedule or i'l risk losing the beat.
the only problem was whenever im around, she will totally refuse bottle. she insists her milk to be 'segar dari ladang'. its fine with  me, since i believe it'l help my milk production.
we bought lots of bottle - all kind available just to encourage her to drink from it. not working. weird, she can drink from her bottle, provided fit with Dr Baby's teat, but she will never ever drink from whatever bottle whenever she stepped out of nursery. not even the same bottle n teat i brought to nursery.
problem came when i had to work out of town. i had to had my husband follow me to babysit aliya because i dont have the heart to left her, im afraid she cant sleep at night if im away. aliya really test our patience when she refused to drink her milk when i'm at work! poor hubby had to put up with her crying and high-pith wailing.. she even cried non-stop from 9 till i finished at almost 12!! poor little thing..
nothing we can do to persuade her to take bottle. she dunt even want her pacifier (somehow im glad she didnt as i might be struggling to wean her from that as well..)
now she's had started solid and eat and drink almost everything, so i worry less if she dont take her milk whenever im away and she's not at nursery.
i planned to continue breastfeeding her until at least she's 2 year-old, but we found out that she's gonna get a little sister soon. i wean her off my chest easily - just few drops of hersyey's chocolate syrup and she went 'eeiiii.. yekk!' she stayed away from my breast almost immediately, but at times still she'l beg me and softly cried wantingly.. again his dad was persistent enough to handle this (again) even he's the one to warn me not to lose it!!
today, aliya still refuse to take her milk (except while in nursery, i still dunno why??!!!) she prefer to drink straight from her cup or glass like us adult do. i had to mix her milk with milo so that she got some milk, especially when it's long weekend or holiday. daddy dont complaint when he had to babysit them anymore because he can feed them anything - mostly Mcdonalds. that's will keep them happy until mommy return.

next baby, still i dreaming of fully breastfeeding. and wanting as much to made up what i lost - i regret not 'serious' enough pumping while at work. i hope i can be more dilligent and kick-off the malasness. hope i can provide enough stocks.
but i learned, its good to introduce bottle earlier. (but aliya was okay at first???) so that baby will get used to it and easier for me to train him/her later.
hope i'l be blessed with good supply and hubby/family will continue to support and encourage me to do that.
Insyaallah

some will ask
1. when we should stop?
 - some says we shoul bf until 2 yrs.. but some says we can go further, depending on you. but surely not more than the age of 7 8 years, right? what an ugly sight.. hehe.
unless u planned to conceive, or already conceived. even that, some people and medical expert says that it wont affect and not harmful. some people i know even continue bf both her child and everybody is fine. but i chose not to because i believe when you bf, it'l cause contraction to the uterus and i cant take the risk. and i'm afraid that i wont be able to provide enough supply to the unborn baby ( i dont really eat well during pregnancy i suppose). again, it depends on you and your medical condition. talk to your doctor if you have concern. talk to people.. eventho they hardly make sense, sometime old wives  are right, u know ;-p

2. how to stop?
it really depend on the child. u can put anything to himder him from coming near aor loathe the teat, but a persistent ones may still attach to it, or the smarter ones will simply ask you to wash them! it's much a try and error. i always pretend that it hurts and it works because the kids just cant stand to see me cry or hurt hehe
u can put some'blood' to add more drama.
if your' not in hurry, u can prepare the child by gradually lessen the session. maybe to reduce it to nighttime only, or sleeptime only.