Finally, unleash the dragon!

selasa 12 april
pagi yg damai.. sempat singgah ke levain, pekena kopi susu dan roti. teruja tengok piza yg baru luar oven. aah harus amik satu. bersantai sorang2 at its terrace surrounded by misty bushes of flowers and  smells of fresh coffee+bread.. ahhh.. feeling2 kat france kejap.

noon, finishes of some works. jogging plan was cancelled due to rain.replaced by some poco2 session. sorry  not interested. so rush home to beat the rain-jam.

6.45 pm arrive at the nursery. happy. dont expect tun razak to be this 'nice' to me especially with today's weather. alhamdulillah.

6.50. packing the kids inside the car.
and suddenly
the 'thunder' came.

tapi kita flashback dulu ya..
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lets rewindddd..
jumaat april fool.
masa amik anak2 kat taska, cikgu bagitau ada beskal sorg budak ni rosak sebab aisyah naik n jatuh. tayar kecit yg support tu patah. cikgu ckp 'mak dia pesan soh ganti balik' ye lah aku paham. aku tak check betul2 apa yg patah, cuma belek2 beskal nk tgk jenis cemana, karang nk pegi cari tayar baru tak salah amik lak.
wiken tu aliya demam, so aku cuti, dan hantar anak2 semua ke s.alam. hari rabu baru pegi taska dan hantar tayar ganti sekali. aku pesan dgn Aida, pengasuh tu bgtau kalau ada apa2, kot takleh pasang ke apa ke.

isnin 11/4. besday mak aku
petang tu sampai kat taska nk amik anak2
a man, i assume the father of some of the girls there too, came to me
'esok you bawa beskal anak saya pegi repair ya!'
i was confused. kan ke aku dah ganti tayar tu minggu lepas??? apa cer ni bai?
oh ok, (dlm ati) hari yg bgtau kat cikgu taska is the wife, so maybe this husband do not know.
'eh saya dah ganti kan..' kataku dengan muka manis.. those who know me will know how i speak, kan?

'takat nk ganti saya pun bulehhh...'

amboiii bahasaaaa..
aah malas nk layan..
'mlm ni saya tak boleh, esok2 lah ye..' kataku sambil nak blah.
initially i agreed sebab terfikir gak agaknya tayar ganti tu tak boleh pasang or it could be another problem that cant be fixed by the teacher.
balik rumah, citer kat abg ajies, apa lagi.. senang je dia ckp 'lenkali suruh dia ckp dengan your husband'
ok, hmmm akak pandai2 agreed je tadi kan. padahal karang nk mengangkut ke kedai ke apa ke abg ajiessss jugaakkk..

begitulah flashback saya.

so petang selasa tu, sampai depan taska aku tengok keta mamat tu ada.. aahh malas nk mengadap. dok kejap dlm keta. tp aku nmpk dia ckp2 something kat kaksu, si pengasuh. kaksu dah tunduk2 je..sah kena bambu ler tuu.
keluar je la tgk apa dia nk kata..buat taktau je. buat whatevil je..
nmpak aku je dia terus ckp
'hari tu u janji nk repair beskal anak saya kan?'
ek elehhh... kau ingat aku keja kedai  beskal ke buleh hangkut beskal anak kau mai ofis?
'kan semlm saya ckp saya tak boleh?'
' iye lah, habis tu kenapa tak repair?' aku ckp bengong kang marah pulakk..
malas nk layan. 'suami saya ckp apa2 ckp dgn dia sendiri!' terus aku blah. akak kan isteri misali. dah itu yg hasben pesan, itu lah yg akak ckp.
aku jeling skit kat beskal tu, mmg nmpk rantai dia jatuh, wic was not the problem before.
pastu dia bebel2 dia kata tayar ganti tu pasang tak betul. sebab cikgu besar je yg pasang.
' ni bukan keja pompuan nk pasang2 semua ni'
ekelehhh lagi sekaliii..
naaaaaakkkk juga soh bawa gi kedai.
heloooo incik.. cer bgtau aku berapa ramai engineer pompuan kat proton tu? i bet ferrari, honda sumer ada enginerr pompuan la. ni takat beskal giant ko nk bisinggg. takat nk pasang skru, pasang rantai beskal tu tayah grad thermodinamik laa..
pastu dia dok insist aku bertanggung jawab potpetpotpetblablablaa..
aku tak berani nk commit apa2, mana dgn hujan renyai2 aku ni ngendeng anak 3 nk masuk keta dgn beg brg lagi, dgn budak2 tu menjerit2 berebut nk dok depan bagai.. mmg aku nk balik cepat. bukan sebab aku nk lari tanggungjawab la bengong!
sekali dia dtg kat keta aku..
out of respect aku buka cermin keta.. buat2 dengar je la apa dia dok bebel tu kan
'awak suruh suami awak dtg sini bincang, org perempuan ni bukan lawan saya.. blablalablalaa'
tp semua akak punya firewall terus roboh bak reaktor nuklear fukushima bila dia ckp 'awak bgtau suami awak dia seorang yg tak bertanggungjawab!'
amboi amboi amboiiiii sedap mulut kauu
akak terus keluar keta and soon enough i was practically bombard him with all possible words i ever remembered. haa amik kaaauuuu. i think i did hit the D minor gak kot. mmg rasa cam menjerit pun ada gak hehe. dah la time magib tu. pikir balik macam malu lak kat org keliling..
i was surprised with myself too.. to those who knows me, you sure know how well i can tolerate people, how high my patience meter is, how 'quite' i can be. i am the last person to confront people. i basically prefer to keep quite to avoid any confrontation. jenis tak suka kecoh2..jenis yg 'biarlah..' jenis yg tak pernah kisah even kalau kena attack personally.
but i guess.. when it come to your loved one, you'l do whatever you have to to defend them.
at some point, i was proud with myself. at least i was able to stand for myself!!! finally aku berjaya bergaduh in public! haa wat an achievement.

and to recall my mom's advice : org 'bodo' gitu jgn dilayan, nanti kita pun sama 'bodo' cam dia
yess.. i regret juga kerana telah menjatuhkan kredibiliti diri sendiri pada hari tu. megarib2 dok bergaduh tepi jalan dgn org sakit mental. sound problem pulak tu. how can i put myself down to the same level as his?
actually masa pengasuh bagitau the wife pesan soh ganti tu pun aku dah terdetik lainmacam je this parents. i mean the way she put it semcam je. ye lah kita pun org ada adab, kalau anak kita bagi rosak apa2 insyaallah kita cuba nk ganti. not just the material yg penting but at the same tima we'd want to teach our kids a lesson or two. tp bila orang nk wat kecoh gini terus macam sakit ati sgt. i dunno wether im still ikhlas to replace or not anymore..

semlm tak pegi taska. sebab hantar anak2 ke s.alam. aku ada kerja kat sana plus ptg tu ada follow up aliya kat smc. bukan sengaja nk lari dari dia pon. hari la kot boleh nk gosip2 dgn pengasuh karang kot2 dia kecoh lagi.

pengajaran to myself :
in future i hope i can deal with this kind of situation differently, more professionally and to too emotionally.
i hope to polish my linguistic ability, to upgrade my vocab, especially kebolehan membina ayat2 yg lemah lembut tapi menikam kalbu gituuu..

p/s : agak2 kalau mati mempertahankan maruah suami kira syahid tak eh?