Alaa....

semlm balik rumah, check beg sekolah aisyah ada buku tulis
ada kot 2 mukasurat
cikgu ajar tulis no jiro and number wan (marah dia ku ckp nomot 'satu', one la mummy..!)
loh.. baru belajar tulis nomot satu ka?
yg page nomot 1 tu ada kot sekerat je
tp takde pulak cikgu letak cap mohor 'ini kerja sekolah'
tp aku  kan ibu yg prihatin
maka malam tu ku 'suruh' gak dia habiskan
siap suruh dia duduk kat meja dapur, ku pasang kipas semua cukup
dah ku bising2 kan.. siap bebel2 lagi pensel dia hilang
ku suruh dia tulis pakai pensel kaler je hahaha
dia pun buka laa buku dgn hati yg berat
baru kot tulis sekali.. "dahh..aisyah tak larat laaa..!"
ewah2
mcm2 ku pujuk tak jalan gak

mlm tu lepas makan semua ku ckp no milk, no sleep selagi tak habis..
pastu aku mogok taknak ckp dgn dia
menjadik gak sebab at last bila ku turun bawah dia ikut and finally gave in
ala bukan susah nk buat garis2 je punn!
see.. dah siap, dgn bangga dia pi boasted about it kat abak
'Abak!!! aisyah dah tulis dah abak..!'

sometimes, bila aisyah mcm tak minat nk belajar/tulis, i am wondering, cud it be that she's bored or what.. because kalau ikut tu dia dah boleh tulis sikit2 123, ABC semua tu
cuma hurup kecik tak berapa mahir
and tak boleh baca je lagi.. takat nk tulis nomot satu tu takde cabaran sgt le
ke.. mmg dia tak suka?

p/s: i dunno how the ticer's reaction will be, sebab actually aliya lagi cepat, dia dah 'tulis' dulu kat buku aisyah hehe

the first half

today marked the half year journey into 2010..
can you believe it?
its been half year/6 mth/183 days since we last set our step into 2010
so,
how are you?
have life been treating you kind enough?
or isit rough and hard?

dun wori dude..
we have another 6 mths to make up
what has happened, well, happened.
no point whining, or keep reminiscing..

so
gather your pulls and strings and all
and its time to move on
learn the mistakes, cherish the goodness
love the unloved

me?
needless to say, i've been blessed
looking forward for the second half..

ah yess
im going to submit the membership application today!!

Week 27

already 27 weeks??
kejap je kan.. im already in my last term!!
and.. to know that its getting closer.. is quite scary
i mean, it'l be another 3 more weeks!! the moment i reach week 30.. hohoho..
i'l be entering the berjaga-jaga time..
hope i dun kuaq masuk hospital for threatened premature labor like i had with aliya again..
last week, though, i was awarded 2 days mc, because of severe pain at my lower ab
i tot its contraction.. maybe its just braxton
but with my history,  nothing is 'nothing'
and even now, i stil had some sharp pain from time to time. but alhamdulillah its not something worry-able enough hehe.. trust me. i know it. its just the way i had my pregnancy.
from now i shoud be more watchful of the timing of the pain, the baby movement (oh $%$^ i dun start counting his kicking yet!)

and yes..
its a he.. most prolly
since the last 2 ultrasound seems like there's a bird in there

i only weight 55-56kg
total weight gained is only about 8kg jek
but i look like a belon already
wondering what's hanging there, tho - my thigh and arms are wagging
double chin stat showing and my cheek is chubbier
my butt? haa i bet u dun even want to hear about it!
this time, i must confess, i eat a lot!!
even TB notices - "eh kali ni okay eh, good you makan mcm2" he commented.
my bump is about the size of this:

i guess.. i never actually see myself out there hehe

i started to develop amnesia these days.. $%^^&(&^%%@# againn.. tensyen sehhh..
at first i tot its the coffee, but tak minum pun stil hard to fall asleep
but it helps a lot now that the kids are sleeping separately, cuma we got to bring aliya into the room at early morning.
and the bumps starts to itch too ouchhhhh...!

pernah kah kau merasa...

pernah tak korang rasa..
malas nk cakap
sebab malas nk ulang2 byk kali benda yg sama,
jawapan yg sama pada soklan yg sama
padalah  baru lima menet tadi dah ckp
tu blom campor yg berbuih mulut ckp sejak 2 minggu lepas

pernah tak korang rasa
malas nk cakap
walaupun benda yg nk ckp tu penting gak sebenarnya
sebab korang tau kalau cakap pun tak guna
tak kemanaa..
last2 end up korang yg merana makan ati sorg2
atau, kalau cakap pun karang jadi kelain citernya
so simpan je lah sorg2...

pernah tak korang rasa
perlu sgt2 nk ckp
atau nk meluah rasa
takpi tak terkeluar
kelu lidah nk mengatur bicara
last2 tak sampai jugaa..

pernah tak korang rasa
tak sampai hati nk cakap
sebab
bila pikir2
ntah2 korang punya salah juga yg banyaknya
mungkin lebih baik betulkan dulu
try mana yg patut
tp end up .. esok2 lusa ia timbul lagi
salah siapa sebenarnya?

pernah tak korang rasa
nk cakap
tp kena cover2
sebab tanak org terasa atau hati terluka
korang rasa.. takpe la, Allah itu ada...

ahad

lemau sungguh lepas 'cuti' lama2..
mmg la lega sikit, tp bila tgk2 eh dah ahad??
hehe
so wiken ku tak gi mana2 wpun dalam hati menggeletis dah buat list sini sana
nk test drive keta (hari jumaat nmpk iklan depan bank tiger ada ofer utk keta cheri so saja la nk rasa duduk dalam tu.. gigih kan?)
nk pi folo ap checkap
nk pi empire -
nk pi pavilion -
nk pi my dear sale  -
mentang2 la hari tu je la laki ku choti kan, semuaaaa nk buat hari tu kann

tp sudahnya
cuma dpt yg wajib je..
lepas chekap tu TB telah serta merta naik pangkat jadi YB yg sungguh sebok menyelesaikan hal ehwal rakyat jelata..

nasib baik at the end of the day, kek velvet merah dari JustHeavenly telah menyelamatkan emosii hehe
sedapp wehh.. terai la!
siries, tak dapek lawan red velvet kopi bin itu..

sebenarnya dok pikir2
patutkah aku setat beli brg baby sekarang (Jugakk!!)
atas sebab2 berikut:
1. perlu mengambilkira keadaan akak yg mungkin mengakibatkan bersalin awal, makanya akak perlu bertindak dengan kadar SEGERA!! ni kira dah lewat dah ni.. hahah
now dah nk masuk 27w, lagi 3w je lagi nk masuk 302.. minggu berjaga2 dah tuuuu
2. mothercare tgh sale.. parkson ada baby fair.. eh jusco sale jugak WTFTFTFWTWFTFWT
2.1/2. my dear, chicco,.. semua tgh saleeee........ argghhhhhhh!!
3. sementara akak masih berkudrat utk jln2 ni

next projek:
kutip balik brg2 lama utk diresaikel. maknanya kena basuh dan simpan elok2 hingga sampai masa. dah siap baru tau mana yg boleh pakai, mana yg tidak.. karang dok ingat ada sekali dah tak boleh pakai.. haa baru ghoplah nk pi beli..
brg lama yg boleh recycle cuma playpen, baby rocker.. oh itu ajek. kena beli tilam baru.. bantal? akak kena cari dan selongkar satu rumah dulu hehe. kemungkinan besar kena beli.
baju pon byk kena beli baru, since baju aliya mostly adalah harta seketurunan, jadi dah teruk gak le
towel, blanket semua dah overused and overwashed.
konklusi : kena siap 89.3% mcm nk terima anak sulung jugak kekdahnya..

so, ada sapa2 nk sponsor apa sila bgtau awal2 ye.. hahahaha!!
or should i get my registry list :-P

solomon kane.. who??

semlm,

tunggu Tb balik, sampai rumah almost half-past midnite

pastu layan vcd pulakk..

citer ni haa..

citer lawan2, evil sorcerer, org jahat bunuh org..kira rating ganas gak ler

hero dia sapa tah, aku tak kenal, some james purefoy yg kdg2 hensem, kdg2 mcm hero tua jek.. rasanya dia ni mmg byk belakon citer ganas2 jek..aha dia pun ada main dlm resident evil kalau tak silap le, tp yg mana satu jgn tanya dakuu.. dlm citer tu ku kenal mila sorg jek

jln citer?

biasa la bila bikin pilem based on watak katun (kot?) ke novel.. ala2 van helsing met conan. actually it came from the same writer of conan the barbarian, so expect lots of blood, head-cutting, blade splashing..

and as it sets in in old drk england back in 1600, where witches were hanged and burned, mud and dirts everywhere..

but personally, i kinda like the gloomy cinematography.. nicely done to match the storyline

the dialogue are basically okaayy.. (im not familiar with english accent tho) even tho at times they could be quite lame.. but its fogiven,, especially whenever they'r uttered when kane looks devilishly hensem to me haha

the story is about solomon kane, who ran away from home when he's very much a child, when father chose his elder brother to become the lord, and want to send him to the monastery instead. he fought because he thinks that, no, because he knew that marcus, his brother is not a nice man.

so he travelled around, and end up became sea captain who's after treasures and stop at nothing in order to get what he wants.. just because he has the physical powers to do so.

so he's done lots of bad and evil things, even to his own man.. until one day he met the Devil's reaper who came to claim his soul. only then he made known that somehow, his soul were promised to the devil for some reason he never know.

of course, as it happen at the very start of the movie, he fought the reaper and escape death

he then seek refugee at a monastry, repent himself and hiding behind every symbols so that devil's army could not find him. because the moment he did something evil, the death reaper will come to him

ye ye je kan??

until one day the top priest halau dia kuar (he actually were 'guided' by some dreams about kane) and says he's destiny is not there.. i remember he says ' the way to seek one's redemption will not necessarily be calm..'

Kane, not wanting to beg, pun kuarlah berjalan sorg diri.

masa berjalan tu ada la few villain come and hit him, but he refused to fight back.. he's salvaged by a good family, the Crowthorn, and he travel with them until the evil sorcerer's army caught them, kill the family and take their doter as hostage.

you see.. all the plots are actually choreographed by evil to lure him out.. they know he'l come for the girl, make him fight and kill again so that they can redeem his soul

but he make a pact with the Crowthorn before he died to save his daughter, and Crowthorn said his soul will be redeemed if he did so..

so apa lagi.. cargass la si kane ni pi cari the girl kan..

and he's directed back to his homeland - where he found out that marcus, whom he thought he (accidentaly) killed, is very much alive but has turned into the masked rider - the right hand man of the sorcerer himself.

and if i was not mistaken, it was his father who made the pact with the devil/sorcerer to save marcus by promising kane's soul..

ok lah to cut short, they end up lawan2, of course hero will win, at the end he killed both marcus and the sorcerer and hils soul were saved.. sebab the meredith girl is saved..

ending dia simple giler, esp part soul dia selamat tu

i was like ler.. tu je?? i mean, it supposed to be the peak of the film, sebab that's the utmost reason Kane is living his live all this while afterall..

watching this, i cuma nk komen sikit je

from the school of taught i came, ku rasa tak ikhlas sungguh dia dok repent selama ni.. like he did that just to avoid the devil/death whatever.. bukan sebab dia nyesal ke sebab nk betul2 kembali pada Tuhan..  i was taught that everything i do, must be 'Lillahi Taala..' buat kerana Allah Taala.. bukan sebab apa2, and if sebab lain2 mmg you wont get the 'redemption' kira sia2 je la..

remember the story about a man who fought alongside Nabi dlm perang apa tah.. turn out he actually pergi perang atas sebab assabiyah and nk defend the country and his people, bukannya kerana agama Allah.. he end up kena tikam and kerana tak tahan sakit, the story goes that he actually killed himself..

i know we dont want that.

but one thing i should have known..

not bad eh??

Ps: I love you

so.. gigih akak menggugel nih hehe
ropanya Incik Purefoy kita antara pemain wyg citer2 femes gak spt A knight's Tale (he's the King) and Vanity Fair..
dan hampir menjadi the next Bond, had he not lost to Craig..
still.. akak tak penah lupa kat incik Butler kita ni..

TB - bila eh nk buat show gini kat akak??? ada brannn???
hahahaha

Apa kau nak?? Part II

knowing what you actually, really want is not easy
you dont even know where to start
am i right?

the society nowadays has set its own rule
to be dubbed as 'success' u must have this and that..

the number 1 is always wealth..
the more millions you have, people will look up at you
and give you the most respect (doesnt matter whether its honest or not)

or
is it how many degrees, masters you have?
the more papers with your names indicates that you'r the genius
so you must be one of those 'org2 yang berjaya'

or
when you hold the highest position in big corporation, politics or become the public figure..cthnya penyanyi top?

itukah tanggaukur kejayaan manusia?

kejayaan = kekayaan, pangkat dan harta dunia?

how about
kebahagian.. ketenangan hati..keamanan hidup,
'harta' yang tidak ternilai spt isteri, suami dan anak2 soleh, saham2 akhirat yang tidak bisa dikira turun naiknya?
ilmu yang bermanfaat?

SO, does it really what matter most?
at least to you. so go on and ask your self
what is it that you really want..??

Apa kau nak? Part 1

pernah tak terfikir
selama berpuluh tahun korang hidup kat dunia ni
apa sebenarnya yang korang nak?

i was having discussion with someone, who is at the junction of his/her life
dunno which way to go to
so i ask,
what exactly you want to do? Dunno..!
hmm..
taktau nk kesian ke.. nak ckp apa...

big problem la if u dunno what you want
makna nya hidup tiada arah tujuan
bangun pagi pi keja just because that's been a routine
you dun even know WHY you must work?
then,
how to become pekerja yg cemerlang then?
8, 9 hours later you punch out, heading home
tgk tivi.. tido
esok bangun pagi pi keja
and balik rumah
itu je la hidup korang

come on.. think harder
IS THIS what life really is?
takkan sebab ni je Allah hantar kamu ke dunia?
there must be specific reason you.. among millions of other sperm cells - was chosen to be here??

yess.. everybody is never the same
Allah specifically made it that way
because the world need each and every of us
we have our own role to play
its just the mystery of God to know and for us to find out.

so start digging now
get to know yourself
you're bigger than what you expect
but, only if you know it..

what u give, u get back

suatu masa dulu..

'Aisyah!!! kemas semua ni..!'
'Alaa.. takpe laa..'
Aisyah..!.. $%^%&**&&%^$$##$!!!!'
'Alaa.. takpe laa... biar lahh..!'

'Apa takpe takpe?? mummy cubit mulut tu nanti!!

dan semalam..
'ala mummy dahaga la, lupa minum air kat ofis tadi'
'Mummy, mummy nanti minum air tau.. makan ubat tau! mana ubat yg aisyah bawa tadi? bla bla blaa.. (bebel kat mummy)'
'ubat mummy letak kat ofis'
'kenapa letak kat ofis? nanti mcmana nk makan?'
'ala takpe la.. esok mummy makan la kat ofis..'
'Apa cakap takpe? Aisyah cubit mulut mummy karanggggg!'

ewahhh.. lawan tokey ko eh??

tanpa mereka..

semlm tinggal kami berdua jek
it feels kinda weird
i tot i.m going to re'feel' perasaan masa berdua jek dulu2..
but nope its not happening.
rasa mcm eh what missing here?

i know
sooner or later we'l be both left alone
before i knew it, they'l soon be a big girl and leave us to start their own lives
we cant be with them forever
they'l start going to school trips
or maybe stay at boarding school
or at least, universiti dorms
and later, maybe.. will leave to live in their own place
and then.. will marry..
owhh owhhh...
i can only watch them from afar..my dear babies..

now i know camne perasaan mak2 aku
and why sinar selalu main iklan anak tak balik tgk mak kat kg tuu..

maybe ayah/abak pun sama cuma org lelaki ni biasalah mana nk bising2
nk tulis blog pun harusssssssssss....
hati di dalam hanya depa yg tau

to them parent
we'l always be their baby.. forever

hope i'l be able to spend more time with them
to treat them better
to be at their services at all times required or not - you know la parent kan
'ohh takpayah la..
tak payah susah2..
kami buleh buat, kami okayy..

but i know, deep inside they like it
they just dont want to 'burden' us, they thought.

ohh please, you are not!!!
its our duty and we'r happily do it for you
so please let us pamper you the way u ever did to us
we could never rivalled what you both have done, not even a pinch of it
so let us do whatever we can..

Dari Mana..?; Untuk Apa..?; Dan Akan Ke Mana..?

everytime i see it,
it never fails to awe
that's only one part of our journey
its more to come
and to become..
so cherish the time you have here
on earth
but dun forget what's waiting for us in the eternity..

i dont want to fall asleep

perkara yang paling bermakna dan menyeronokkan dan menyenangkan dan sentiasa membuatkan saya tersenyum sorang2 adalah melihat wajah2 org yg saya sayang sedang tido.
mereka nmpk sungguh cantik dan comel..
sungguh murni dan kudus..
sungguh tidak garang

betul la ckp aerosmith..
saya sanggup tidak tidur
saya rela menatap wajah2 mereka sepanjang malam
because i dont want to miss a thing..
i dun wan to miss one smile
i dun wan to miss one kiss

dan
tak lama kemudian saya akan tersenyum lagi
sambil mengangkat kenin sebelah
kerana akan terus perasan mereka jadi begitu kerana saya... hahaha
heyy.. look at the mummy and the wifey la deyyyy!
siapa lagi nk puji kann..

jgn dtg mlm ini

i waS hit by few contractions yesterday
quite strong.. and long
but not at definite interval. so it cant be it
but i went for check just to make sure
yess the cervic is very much stil intact
so doc suspect internal infection might be the culprit
(tiap2 kali cam tu la..)
but to be safe i was also instructed to take lot of rest
mcm la ku buat keja berat sgt kan
tapi takpe.. kita take it positively
akan ku sahut cabaran doktor utk tidak berbuat apa2 dan makan tido sajerk haha
afterall, just got my hands on the shopaholic siries (ya ya ku tau aku ketinggalannnn.. !!)
great timing sungguh
and my angel to the rescue - my mother in law terus dtg rumah, bawak nasi+ayam masak merah+dalca yg sungguh sedapppp.. dan juga offer utk jaga budak chomel berdua itu, so that i can have total rest.
read : TOTAL

dan malam ini
duduk sorng2 kat rumah
TB lagi 4 jam (tadi.. skrg dah kul sploh, so lagi 2 jam + je lagii..) baru sampai rumah
dan diluar adalah hujan dan angin yg tak berapa nk berbahasa
jengok keluar tingkap semasa basuh pinggan, nampk kain melayang2
adussss awat la aku tang angkat tadiii...
tetiba rasa sunyiii nye lahai rumah ni..
dah la mlm jumaat pulak..
mula la nk pikir mcm2

boring seyyy dok sorg2
kalau tak sure dah terpekik bergaduh dgn budak2 chomels itu
atau saya mungkin sedang menjadi pengadil siapa yg lebih berhak utk mengasah pensel
remote tv  (or isit really the decoder) ada prob pulak..
sungguh..
hidup terasa seperti tiada makna

kalau ada mereka.. saya sanggup duduk di rumah shj mengadap muka mereka dan abak mereka
tp kalau mereka tiada..
apa gunanya??

Dream Sweet dream

this week, tetiba Aisyah nak pulak tido bilik sebelah, wif adik.

i sesaja push the idea of them two sleeping in bilik 'maktok'

tgk2 eh nak la pulak! wahhh.. senang la mummy and abak nk check in selalu haha

but aliya stil..at early morning mesti nak munyik2.. and abak have to carry her back into our room
*now abak pun baru tau rasanya tidokan anak2 - mesti dia pun end up tertido sama degn derang, leaving mummy to have the bed all to my own...

the kids do not have their own bed/bedroom yet and i've been planning to for quite some time
cuma nengokkan respons si aisyah dan aliya yg mmg takleh tido kalau mami takde kat sebelah (if im around la, kalau ku takde boleh je..) so takde la ku nk beria sgt
so tgk la, kalau they keep doing fine for another weeks.. maybe we'l be more serious about it
hehe mmummy yg teruja.. sebab boleh setat deko bilik chomel2 itu!!

so, next plan adalah untuk beli katil

hmm.. shud i let them share the queen bed, or buy a separate single ?

derang tu bukan buleh sgt, memlm kalau sorg tertendang ke terkena kaki ke mmg menjerit2, tp mata menten tutup  hahah

aisyah beria nak katil dabel deck.. ada sekali dia ternmpk katil 2 tingkat siap ada doremon.. asyik sebut yg tu jek.. tp mami tak suka laa.. leceh

i'd prefer either 2 separate single bed, so each of them would assume the responsibility to her own 'territory', dont you think its good for them?

or, should i go for pulled out bed?

its simpler, and wont take much space but

kesian pulak nanti aliya sure dpt yg bawah je..

but they'l be closer to each other when sleeping.

next mission is to find the bedsheet.. hehe

katilnya pun blom ada
so i reserve la dulu ek..

but..

adakah patut ku beli je dulu?
lgpun bedsheet lagi murah dari katil..haha

kalau la bilik cantek camgini.. babai la abak.. mummy tido dgn hangpa ye..

Nightmare on Elm Street

Training for diaper-free night is the real challenge. its different at all.

at first, i still put aisyah on diaper.
but im lucky to be able to let her went diaper-free at times, especially kalau terlupa or terlajak, since i still had the plastic sheet on my tilam. helps a lot, just had to change the bedsheet and wipe the sheet clean.
it helps a lot, since when she wakes up all wet, she knows that it shudnt be that way
and me will bebel2 at her, and she'l remember.
 there's a lot of tips on succesful potty train at night but i just go with my best motherly instinct.
its not easy since aisyah insists on her milk right before sleep. and followed by another half bottle of plain water later..mmg sah-sah banjir la pastu..
what i did was to make sure she go to toilet right after her milk. by hook or by crook! at times dia pun malas gak so berperang gak ler nk soh pi toilet. especially kalau dia dah siap pakai diapers.
since she by then dah pandai pakai lampin sendiri lagiii la.. tgk2 dah ready je, dah siap kencing pon dlm tu!!! tak pasai2 kena ganti.
and since siang2 dah tak pakai lampin, she will on poo poo malam2.. elok pakai lampin je mula la..
i notice, bukannya dia tk reti nk guna toilet ke apa, but more likely dia saja 'seronok' berak dlm lampin.. buleh????
after 'few' rows dan beberapa ancaman cubitan, she finally gave in.. naturally actually.
i just noticed that she gradually be able to stay dry till morning. cuma kalau bangun lambat haa terkucil la jugak.
i dont wake her up in the middle of the night, sebab dia dah la susah nk tido kan, kalau kena kejut mlm2 sah2 buat perangai. tak sukerrrrr..! so takpe la mummy relaaa basuh cadar hari2

kalau ikut some of the tips i found on the net, for eg here

if i may simplified the tips:
1. invest in plastic sheet to protect the mattress. agak2 kalau korang mama yg kejam kasi je anak tido atas lantai hehe
2. limit the fluid intake by nighttime. i tried to reduce the amount of milk and plain water tp ikut nasib la, at times she'l insists 'nak susu banyakkk!!!'
3. bring your kid to empty their tank right before bedtime.
4. wake them up to shee-shee in the middle of the night, or again right before dawn. most accident normally occurs around that time.

you just have to be (again) patient.
accident-free night may take longer to build.. so hold on.

apapun, i noticed that the success rate for complete diaper-free children lies in several factor:
1. the childs ability/holding power - my aisyah is very good at this. i have never had accident when outing with her! she can hold it quite well.. but i didnt take the risk, even if it means terpaksa la ku berlari2 dukung dia yg dok tahan!!
2. persistency - a must.
3. child's understanding - they must know why they'r need to do that. if not they just wont bother..
4. full support - from everyone around. it may not work properly, or it'l take longer time to success if not everyone is co-operating. because it'l make the kids confuse and the routine will be interrupted. but of course, you need to know when to stand and when to give in.. takkan nk pi rumah org pastu biar anak kencing merata kan.. agak2 laa.. and maybe you can be more considerable with  your kids caretaker.. explain to them, but give them some space.. u might not want them to feel 'burdened' with the extra task all of sudden. some childcare centre do encourage and potty train the kids, so be prepare and get to know their methods. jgn tetiba nk hangen bila anak cerita kena marah ke apa.. i mean, check with the nanny/teacher dulu.

tu je la kot?
kalau ada soklan sila kemukakan tanpa was was.

potty train

http://www.babble.com/CS/blogs/strollerderby/2009/01/potty_training.jpg

i dun remember exactly when i started aisyah on her potty training
but it was when a fren told me she'l dragged her doter, about same age as aisyah, to the toilet every nite and how she became diaperless both night and day at the age of 2, daku terasa tercabar haha
i started quite slow.
i waited til aisyah be able to tell me when she actually wanted (or already) shee shee
its easy, sebab she can 'speak' when she's 1+. and we can always tell when she went.. her expression tells all.
what not easy was.. how to train her to go at the toilet
i bought her own potty.. kemain lagi siap ada tempat sandar bagai.. cuma takde lagu je
yet, she refused
ciss...kalau tau ku beli je potty yg lima hengget tuu..
pastu beli toilet seat utk budak.. jenuh gak le nk pujuk dia duduk..
during weekends, i'l let her diaperless, at first i'l put her on training pants
its not easy but, the she 'helps' since she'l let me know everytime she leaks
jenuh gak ler mendobi
tapi ku tahannnn jebat!!
actually by letting them go, we'l be able to time their timing. like aisyah i got to know her routine is every hour or two. so cukup jam je ku heret ke toilet
tp cam biasa.. she wont go.. berejam ku tunggu/paksa  sampai berbuih mulut dok 'shhhhh... shhhhhh...
siap ajak main2 air bagai.. tak jalannnnn...
elok kuar je, terburaiii... geram tak? geram tak? geram tak??
tell you, potty training mmg menuntut kesabaran yg amat tinggi la
and as i dun follow strictly the timing schedule (wic, if i folo, its expected to succeed in 2 week - 1 month time ajek) i dun expect much from her
after a while, she can go diaperless and be able to tell me when she need to go
and before her 3rd birthday, i can be confident enough to travel with her diaperless.
cuma bila nk poo poo she still ask for her diaper, tak reti agaknya
but after sometimes she can finally use the potty.. YIHAAAAA!!!!
satu pencapaian buat ibunya..

some tips on potty training:

1. wait at least until your child can tell you when he/she want to go, nevertheless, by word or action. it means they'r ready and you'l save a lot of time. however some old maid will start training right from baby's first week. even my mom will go 'sshhhh... shhh..' everytime she bathe babies.

2. timing and establish routine - baby is easy to develop routine. so once you established one, try as much as you can to stick with it. bukan senang nk get hold of the routine, so dont blew it! remember once its broken.. you had to start all over again.
first, get to know the timing. so bring the child to potty/toilet when the time is up. let them get used to it at least for 2 weeks.
for my case, i dont have time to wait for 2 weeks, my time is limited to weekend only. so i took longer time to train her. maybe if you can afford it, take long leave to attend to this specifically.

3. use training pants - or normal pants/underwear if you sanggup take the risk.
these pants will help them to feel the wetness, make them uneasy and thus, will encourage them to go to toilet, rather than stay in the comfort of diaper.
during this time, consider take off all your carpets and furnishing.. ban the sofa if you must hehe.
keep close watch on your kid, as there's possibility they'l pass around anywhere

4. encourage them by praising them or reward - jenuh la ku dok tepuk tangan and shout 'yeeaaa.. pandaiii...!' everytime she did.. jenuh gak nk pujuk.. crack/making up stories etc.. just that she like the idea..
but sometimes.. you need to go harsh, once, and they'l remember it forever! hehe especially if they'd 'passed' the first stage but suddenly refuse to.. haa ni mmg nk kena la ni.. sekali cubit ingat selamanyaa..

5. show them how - if you must!
i did show her how to sit on the seat.. make my doter see how i go.. (but of course kena make sure i didnt expose too much! haha) it make them see how the 'adults' do it.
it always work because kids really want to imitate us adults.. but it may be easier for mummy-doter, but for boy.. daddy.. can you take over please....?

6. be patient.. be really really patient..
ni mmg kena ada la.. and paling penting juga secubit ketabahan dan disirami dgn sifat kerajinan yg tinggi. espesyelli kalau semua kena buat sendiri... just remember - bersusah2 ke hulu, berenang2 ke tepian, susah utk sementara je, when your child is finally free.. its priceless..

btw.. there's lots of info on the net. everything is at your fingertip nowadays..rajin2kan lah diri mencari.
for eg
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/potty-training/cc00060
http://www.babycenter.com/toddler-potty-training-advice

best, check out the discussion forums to get the hands-on experience of the the tried-and-been there moms.
what you read may not work for you, so dont limit  yourself and your kids.
just remember not all the kids are the same, they move on different rate, dont be sad/frustrated if yours wont be what you want them to be. maybe its not the time yet.. give them some time, they're learning too..!

*personal note : Aisyah is totally completely diaper-free day and night by May 2010, right after her 4th birthday

Aikk?

agak2 apa yg tak kena dalam gambar di atas ye??

ku sedar siapa aku di sisimu

tadi saje browse alam maya
lama tak cari bahan utk ibu mengandung
dulu masa first2 time beria la baca memacam
ni kunun2 dah terer lah ye??
kalau dulu wajib cari fakta pasai sakit nak bersalin, options, best O&G, best hospital in town, brg baby.. apa nk bawa ke spital, what to expect and all
tp kali ni terjumpa pasai how the mothers are coping when they expecting, with others kids around

yes, the first pregnancy is heavenly bliss
sebab we can simply take naps anytime
no one to take care, or better.. org lain yg sibuk2 nk jaga kita
boleh manja2 nak itu ini
somi pun kemain la mengikut kan
nak pulak bila we lost the previous one
so yg ni mmg jaga sungguh2 la kan..

but when u'r pregnant with toddlers around
life can be totally different
larat ke tak larat ke kena bangun juga utk anak2
takkan nk biar  makan pakai berak kencing derang tak terjaga kan
takkan nk biar derang main sampah.. so nk tak nak kena kemas juga
the first trimester is hard esp if u had severe morning sickness
masuk bulan 4 or 5 boleh la okay sikit
but masuk 6 7 bulan dah tak larat, mana dgn mengah, perut makin besar dan berat
tambah pulak si kecik nk dukung la itu ini..
this time around a little help adalah amat dialu2kan
esp from hasben
not only to support you emotionally but also physically,
so for those yg takde hasben around mmg ku salute la
i read about this woman, with 2 kids and pregnant with the 3rd, separated from the father
and she's a student herself..
she said.. she just have to do what she has to do
and she believe ada lagi org yg lagi susah dr dia..
wowww!!
aku ni.. komplen je manjang kan
laki lambat sikit buang sampah dah tarik muka..
ok ok akak insap nii...

bila mummy pakai celana

hari ni mcm ada masa lapang sikit
sebab budak dua org tu bila sorang kena marah tahap kuasa enam, yg lagi sorang akan terus diam tak byk ckp
dan derang akan berpadu tenaga bermain leklok tanpa kacau mummy
bila ku turun bawah tgk sorang dah tergolek.. sorg lagi beria nk pakai baju
mummy menten muka stern seraya berkata ' pegi tido!'
dan dia akur..
haa kalau camni selalu kan ke senang
tak payah mummy terjerit2 mcm mak tiri

Siri Pengetahuan Am

aku terjumpa dlm satu blog ni pasal saka
dia bgtau (tu pun dia dengar sipi2 je dlm tibi) tanda2 kalau org ada saka

meh kita check korang ada ke tak hehe.. jeng jeng jenggg

petanda2 saka melalui mimpi:


1. bermimpi anda jatuh dari tempat tinggi dan tersentak dari tidur  - haa rasa2 dari kecik mmg aku selalu mimpi camni, kdg2 mimpi naik beskal pastu jatuh, mmg rasa tersentak la. tak penah pulak org ckp tu tanda saka. rasa2 ni pun ada penjelasan saintifik tp siries ku tak ingat pasaipa..
2. bermimpikan baby - tah, tak ingat. tp dulu masa kat uni ada gak time2 mcm nmpk muka org (sori ku tak kenal siapa) pandang je kat aku. org itu lelaki tapi tak hensem maka aku abaikan je..

tapi kalo mimpi menyusukan baby tu, mmg saka da masuk ler.. - ni laaagiii tak pernah..

petanda saka secara fizikal:

1. anda sentiasa sakit dibahagian atas belakang - err.. again, whic part exactly? kalau atas sikit dari pinggang, belikat ke apa nama tu mmg selalu laa.. tp sebab aku selalu dudukk je manjangg, kot?

2. kadang kala anda menangis@sedih tanpa sebab - apa pulak tak bersebab.. tp kdg2 sebab bodo2 je pun buleh tangkap leleh. apa kesss??

3. kerapkali bangun tido, bahagian2 badan ada lebam2 - tu dulu2 masa kecik2, tp aku baca dlm sokkabar tu ada penjelasan saiintifik, tak cukup zat besi katanya. skrg pun kerap lebam2 kat lutut and kaki, sebab aku cemerkap, jln sikit langgar bucu sana sini

4. sakit sendi2 utama - pinggang, lutut - sakit cemana eh? lenguh2 sikit2 tu biasa la, dah nama pun org tak eksesaiss..

5. sakit kepala tapi tak dapat dikesan oleh doc perubatan. - jarang la nk sakit, takat penin lalat je, tu pun sebab aku kurang air


*maklumat tambahan:
laluan masuk IBLIS ke dalam badan manusia:

1. melalui ubun2

2. melalui hujung kaki

org kata, antara tanda2 ada 'bendasing' dlm badan anda adalah apabila korang terasa mcm berdenyut2 tang urat, mcm ada benda bergerak2 bawah kulit, kdg2 boleh nmpk sesuatu bergerak.
tapi ada org kata itu sebab otot kita terlampau letih.. wallahualam

speketi bolonee..

minggu lepas

'mummy... nak kapucino?'

dan tadi,
mummy...aisyah nk speketi..
aisyah nk speketi apa?
aisyah nak speketi boloni...

amboiiiii...

daku dulu hanya reti sebut 'bolognese' lepas dpt lesen memandu..

macaroon lagi

pengakuan terbuka buat nurul dan Puan Baby
saya dengan ini mengumumkan saya telah menterai macaroon godiva yg saiznya adalah 3x lebih besar dar stelle, dan rasa juga 3 kali lebih nk matiii.....dan reganya juga adalah 7 kali lebih dari biasa hehe
masa saya beli macaroon itu berwarna hijau, dengan perasa coklat almond (kalau tak silap lah)
inti coklatnya adalah sungguh ssedapp.. tapi manis gilerr sampai kalau ada org kencing manis yg makan adalah stg berpotensi utk pengsan dan mata jadi putih2 di situ jugak.

sekian terima kasih.
saya sudahi dgn amaran 'silalah beli skrg jugaaaaa!!!!'

bila hangen satu badan

mula nk meraban
sakit sana sini
semua tak kena

bila tak kena
mula nk hangen satu badan

bila hangen satu badan

mula nk meraban
sakit sana sini
semua tak kena

bila tak kena
mula nak hangen satu badan

bila hangen satu badan

semua tak kena
sakit sana sini

semua org ku nk meroyan
mula nk hangen satu badan!!

bila hangen satu badan..
*ulang lah sendiri ya!!

All Cried Out

"All Cried Out"



All alone on a Sunday morning
Outside I see the rain is falling

Inside I'm slowly dying

But the rain will hide my crying, crying, crying

And you

Don't you know my tears will burn the pillow

Set this place on fire

'Cause I'm tired of your lie

All I needed was a simple "Hello"

But the traffic was so noisy that you could not hear me cry

 I gave you my love in vain

My body never knew such pleasure,

My heart never knew such pain

(And you) You leave me so confused

Now I'm all cried out, over you.


Cryin' over you, yeah


Never wanted to see things your way,

Had to go astray

For why was I such a fool (Why was I such a fool)

Now I see that the grass is greener

Is it too late for me to find my way home,

How could I be so wrong?


Leaving me all alone

Don't you know my tears will cause an inferno

Romance up in flames,

Why should I take the blame?

You were the one who left me neglected (I'm so sorry baby)

Apology not accepted

Add me to the broken hearts you've collected

(I) I gave you all of me (Gave you all of me)

How was I to know,

You would weaken so easily

(I) I don't know what to do (I don't know what to do)

Now I'm all cried out (All cried out)

Over you

(I) I gave you my love in vain

My body never knew such pleasure,

My heart never knew such pain

And you


You left me so confused

Now I'm all cried out

Now I'm all cried out

Over you

aliya after 20 mths

i notice i hardly write specific entry for Aliya
maybe sebab she hardly speak a word, so mcm tak de benda sgt
and i had problem uploading their pics in here.. mcm tak de benda pulak nk citer

i've been observing my liya closely now and notice few things
she's getting more cheeky - dah pandai mengusik org youu...
mummy pun kena usik!
kalau naik kereta now the 2 of them will sit at the back, and normally for short trip they'l do a lot to entertain themselves. most of the time aisyah will do her childish antics and liya will gelak terkekeh2
other times, when she's bored i'l hear litel humming from behind.. normally aliya la.. konon nyanyi le kot tuh!
another things that i notice - aliya is the neaty type. she will put down her things properly, at the right place after she's done.
like semlm, after she done with her bath, she turn back, just to put the shampoo bottle at its rightfully place.
and when i asked her to put away her milk bottle, she did so, tp tak puas hati when the bottle like senget a bit, she took the liberty to 'arrange' it properly.

hope good habits like this stays last.

these habits is not taught directly by us (maybe i did subconsciously)
maybe its true when people says we tend to develop some habit ourselves
or isit already planted in the gene?
i dun remember being overly cautios or meticulous when i was pregnant with her
and rasa2, aisyah was okay when she's about that age too.. cuma bila dah besar dah pandai menjawap 'nope.. aisyah malass..' and she just cudnt care less..

lets wait and see what will happen to them in say.. 5 years time?

and maybe i shud add a thing or two bout aliya
despite her 'macho' and garang look,
she's actually very into girly2 things!
jgn terkejut yaa.. dia sgt suka beautiful dress.. mekap, handbags (especially!) and high heels!!
semlm beria suruh ku buka kasut dia, ingatkan she want to go barefoot, but instead she reached for my sandals!
oh must be sisterly influence
she will do exactly what aisyah did!

updates (hapenyeee...)

wuhuuu tup tup dah nk masuk last semester nih
mmg terasa sedikit mengah bila nk tunduk bangun
alhamdulillah krem tak berapa sgt, maybe sebab cuaca yg panas sekrg ni
lain2 sihat2 shj, cuma kdg2 ada rasa krem kat bawah perut
jln lebih sikit mmg letih aa..
tp stil ada ati nk tawaf soping komplek
ehh kata kena eksesaiss...!

ukurlilit perut tak terukur jugak hehe
tp perasan dah  besar gak ler
some suar dah tak boleh pakai
(mukan sebab tak muat perut, tp sebab tak muat tang peha haha)
tp menten boleh duduk silang kaki lagi you...
hari tu mak mertua ku kata perut ku senget haha
mesti sebab nk kena dokong si aliya
bukan apa.. kalau  nk tunggu dia jln sendiri alahaiii lambat nyeee...

babywise.. alhamdulillah
next checkup nk tgk ada pusing ke idak
apa2pun its still too early so tak kisah la dia nk duk tang mana pun, janji sampai masa amik posisi betui2 ye nak!
adik baby's been kicking hard lately.. aikk dekat2 musim bola ni.. petanda kah??? ekeke

mummy - is getting lazier and lazierrr...
aisyah - is getting on my nerve more and more (semlm she insists nk bogel.. buleh???)
aliya - is getting cheekier and smarter! go girl!!
abak - no komen

why us women shud not dislike worldcup

1. because this is the time when men will literally left us alone
2. they will talk about nothing  but futbol.. futbol futbol..  ala mcm tak besa kan, its nothing new. not that they ever interested in our girly gossip pun kan, so we'r free to gossip more!
3. they will try to catch on their night-deprived sleep whenever they can - that means we'r left on our own!
4. and because they's so badly need the sleep, they'l just angguk to whatever we said - no other perfect timing as this.. so use it wisely girls!!!
5. no need to worry if they disappear at nights - the probabilities that they'r hanging at mamak is higher than elsewhere (provided your man is a truly football fan, if not..hehe u better watchout - football match may just be an excuse!! and be on the look out if they'r spending time at any worldcup party around bangsar!)
6. and.. we can always use this 'its only u and football and never me!' excuse to make them feel guilty later.. hahaha talk about revenge.. its never been sweeter..


aahh... total freedom..

rezeki badan..

asal mengandung je mesti dpt suprise advanced besday gift..

who could ask for more?

cuti sekolah yeayyy

ecehh.. seronok eh cuti sekolah ni?
buleh lambat2...
jln tak jem..
ofis sunyi je sebab ramai cuti (esp bos-bos haha)

tp ku tak faham la..
1 - its only 7.30 am but everybody is driving like a drunk already?!
2 - awat pak polisi nk sebok jugak time2 gini? all directions are smooth! but thanks to them i had to waste my precious 5 mins waiting to get into the lane?? grggrgrgrggr!!!

i't l be another week till the school holiday end
so another week of jam-free traveling

but malehnya lahaii nk kuar
pasai soping kompleks dan tempat jenjalan sure penuh dgn org ramai yg menjalankan tanggungjawab sbg ibu bapa misali kepada anak2 mereka..

so wiken ni nk buat apa yah??

apa pun enjoy the temporary freedom while u can!

ye la
aku sedar la aku dah gemukk
im fat all over
and i look like the grinch when i wake up
aku tak rajin susun meja kusi sampai peluh2
and
i dun have 'nice' (read: seksi) pics posted on my fb..

@$%^&()*)*&^%$#Q

    ok.. sekali lagi entry utk adik gue yg dah tak bujang ituu..
gambar2 adalah hasil cilokan dari alam maya.

ni time sanding kat kg..

   lepas akad

kepala anak sapa ler tuhhh....mcm kenai??

 

Nice pics ijat!!! nmpk cantik pulak cadar murahan ku ituuu hahahaha

again...

thanks to all yg menolong

walaupun tulung tengok je hehe

paling penting, bes buat kenduri kat kg.. wpun penat tp puas..

Akak sukerrrr...!!!

yesss dapat gak merasa eh..
hari tu masa org dok sebok2 akak malas nk amik pot
ye la, tak bajet pun akak layak
katanya sebulan kena gawang 80 kali
tp hari bekerja cuma 20 hari je
takat pegi jln2 tu berapa la sgt kan
dah tu bila dok reload takde bau2 pun..
semlm nk balik kl terasa nk singgah topap jap sebelum lalu bawah palang tu
tgk2 TB sengeh2 ja.. aikk??
rupanya akak sudah dpt rebet you.....
tatau la semua yg akak dpt tu jumlah terkumpul ke cemana, tak tau cemana kira
tp yg pnting jumlah dia tu.. RM150+ youuu..... lepas duit tol akak sebulan hehe

akak baru tau, kalau nk dpt rebet tu kena reload kat kaunter plus ajek @ pusat khidmat pelanggan
kalau kat mesin atau atm mmg tak dapek laa..
so
korang2 kalau rasa dah cukup kuota, atau saje2 nk check, sila lah ke kaunter yg terdekat ya!

lagi sekali.. tahniah kepada diri sendiri.

adik ku kawen

kawen jugak adik ku ye..
kali ni kawen betul2
bukan kawen main2

malas nk citer panjang
tayang gambar cukup la ye..
dialog dan jln cerita korang pandai2 le buat sendiri ya!

aahhh lembab pulak nk upload gambar

besok2 lah ye.. nk siap2 ni
nk balik kg mlm ni
karang org tu balik tgk aku tak siap lagi ada yg tak jadi balik kanggg...

percubaan.. i 2 3

Yesss..
mlm ni dinner mee udang ye.. atau nama penuhnya mee udang cincai boncai ala tokai. agak2 kalau transelet ke french bunyi cemana eh?
sila tau fes taim akak try buat nih
boleh la takat nk makan sendiri..
dan sendiri masak sendiri kena la kata okay kan hahaha
asal ada rasa udang  tu kira jadi lah yek..
dah la byk sungguh cabaran masa nk buat tu
byg kan plan dari hari senin, hari ni baru la terlaksana
so rasa ada sikit kurangggg sebab udang tak fresh..
takpe yg penting dah tau sikit2, besok2 buleh trai lagi

*org s.alam/klang sila bawak bersabar kerana sebarang rekues belum dpt di layan buat masa ini hahaha tunggu saya master dulu ya!

oh gambar tiada kerana sesungguhnya rupa itu tidak penting
(sebenarnya tadi berangan nk amik gambar siap dgn dapur yg berminyak2 itu sebagai penambah efek penceritaan tapi tidak sampai hati)

jadi Abg ajies,
jgn pandang lekes pada adinda atau cuba memperkecilkan bakat adinda ya!!

6th

aik awat entry bernombor je sekarang ni..

malas nk buat ni tapi buat la jugak kan hehe

last week sebenarnya adalah annibeseri akak dgn abg ajies
dah nam tawon kawen
anak pun dah 3
bukan perut je sesama ke depan
rambut pon dah makin kurang.. haha

tp takde selebret apa pun
sebab bagi  laluan kat org baru la kan.. org lama ni esok2 buleh selebret
alah kitorang selebret berempat org je dlm bilik dendiamm haha

dah le mlm tu abg ajies keja sampai tgh mlm
dia balik and wish akak yg tgh mamai syiok2 tido
i was like ..' oh.. ok!'
abak n mak mcm biasa akan wish thru sms siap dgn doa dan pesan2 penaja (tq abak/mak!)
mak akak lak tunggu masa nk balik kg semlm baru wish.. haha sempoi tak?

tapi kebetulan hari jumaat tu dok kemas2 stor terjumpa vcd kawen ku
aisyah lak beria nk tgk, so ku pasang la
bila orang tokai sampai semua pakat layann.. hahaha nostalgik sungguh tgk abg ajies dan akak yg kurus keding time tu
semua kena gelak

apapun..

to DYMM Tuanku Ajies al-Hensem ku nan seorang

Kanda tetap wajah kesayangan dinda
wajah yg dinda nanti setiap pagi, petang, siang dan malam
(kalaupun kdg2 dinda put my menyampah mode - tu berlakon aje sebab geram kanda dok pi melapuk kat kedai sampai tetengah mlm.. jeles+tensen okeyyy!!)
Kanda sorang saja hero yang bertakhta di hati dinda
dulu, kini..
dan selamanya...





oleh itu..

encik Hero,
minta tolong bawa sampah keluar boleh? terima kasihh.. :-)

112

112 days to go!!
huhuhu.. mcm kecikkk je nomot satu dan nomot dua tu kan
tolak campur 3 minggu @21 hari = aaa jap nk cari kakuleter
wallaaaa.... 91 jo laeiii...

gugup nih!

korang ingat beranak ni macam naik pirate ship kat genting?
at least yg tu dah tau dah bila nk naik turunnya
tapi bersalin ni macamm.... macam meracing bersama pemandu F1 - we never know what will happen
yess we know we all will start when the flag is raised, and downed
we know the route
but we cant  be sure when will we need to make the pit stop
or or if the tyre will explode
or we'l be sided offtracked by the other racers..

the adrenalin will stay high

at least they got to practice..
tapi akak ni nk prektis hapenyeee...
prektis sora meneran camana paling sedap?
prektis muka tahan sakit paling comey?
prektis berak batu?

tp kalau yg ni akak sukaa -> prektis mencengkam tangan laki..
hahaha