10 Things

ok, not necessarily 10
it cud be more
or less

things i really enjoy
1. watching daun kelapa mendayu2 di tepi pantai time tghari..pehhh rasa nk tido kat situ juga
2. the vision of calm and cool bluish/greeninsh water, be it sea or lake. stream also will do. ralit je tgk
3. rain. i love sitting by the window and watching the rain. i love the after-rain coolness and freshness too.
4. good classical/oldies music. not only beethoven tp tidak juga dilupa kpd ahmad jais dan hail amir/uji rashid. wajah kesayangan hamba is my all-time feveret. cam kiut je lagu tu.
5. enjoy looking at the faces of my loved ones while they asleep.. so pure. im so much loving with them.
6. good book. who cud say no to?!
7. good food. who cud say no to?!
8. good jokes. who cud resist?!
9. a good company, whom can understand u without ever having to utter a word to each other. siapa itu?? hehe
10. plants. greeneries. flower pots.

things i cant tolerate. really elejik
notes: its nothing personal bout these things, cumanya the mere mentioning of the words bring about bad memories. so i refused to associate myself with anything to do with the words. no harm ya!

1. avon. like i said, i have nothing against the product, cumanya someone who did hurt me in the past was an agent hehe. aci tak?
2. name Ain. siriesly pain in the ears. and the heart too. too bad, one of my dear fren has the same name.
to Ain Mat Isa, its not you, you are one of the dearest fren i ever had, i cudnt repay you enough.
3. disebabkan no 2 juga aku takleh dengar lagu abg Kazar memburu impian.
4. nama ayu dan shakey's pizza. again, not so pleasant memori. nasib baik piza shakey sedap lagi dari piza hat. tp dah tutup. sure kena tulah aku tu...
oh shud i  mention ayu adalah seorang budak pendek berambut panjang dan perasan comey?? bluekkk
5. suatu nama bermula hurup K. malas nk tulis nama penuh karang org gugel sampai ke sini pulak. ni pun ada lagu tp aku tak ingat tajuk. lagu xpdc yg tunggu gefren kat bus stop tu apakah?

ya tak sampai 10 pun. see my goodside still outwit my bad.

oh jgn di tanya ya apa dan dimana atau kenapa. ini cerita lama yang saya cuba delete tp masih melekat di recycle bin saya.

tetiba
ingat citer 10 things? this is my feveret scene. since then 'u'r too good to be tru' become my personal anthem

still practising this look everytime something annoying crossing  my path.

ju, jadi tak?

pregnancy updates @14w

now dah masuk 14 weeks
patutnya i shud start feeling better
but instead i started to develop my morning sickness in the morning, esp masa nk berus gigi
still feeling tired easily, and tend to blackout everytime i get up.
maybe sebab ku kurang makan
now mmg tak berapa nk selera mkn, minum lagi la.. tatau nk minum apa, the choice of my drink is soooo limited. the only thing i can tolerate is air kosong and i keep on loading lots of 100 plus, kekonon nk ganti zat2 yg hilang.
ramai komen i looked thinner. but i feel the opposite
ku rasa lemak2 makin rancak berkumpul di pinggang dan perut dan makin ke depan
padahal baby baru lah 40gram ajek

gambar baby ku cilok dari babycentre

baju2 masih muat so belum start pakai uniform lagi. tadi pegi jusco tgk baju preknen cantik2, ada sale pulak hehe.

TB selalu komplen ku asyek baring je.. karang baby tak aktif katanya

ala rilek la bang.. time ni mmg la ai patut baring,  sebab itu penting utk pembesaran baby hehe

besok2 dah 4 5 bulan dah feeling better baru lah boleh setat gerak2

(aci tak alasan gitu?)

among other things wat i like about being pregnant is i got good excuse to shop

1. of course you got to shop for the newborn things

2. shopping is part of safe, low-impact exercise hehe. and TB cant argue with me. dah nk sgt ku jln2 kan, haa sila lak ikut ku ke shoping kompleks.

i bet, dekat2 nk bersalin karang konpem dia bawak ku pi tesco haha

cubit peha kanan peha kiri terasa jua

akak tgh sedih ni
semlm nk balik kerja, masa kuar parking akak terlupa (eceh tak ngaku silap kan) nk bajet
sudah nya keta ku tersagat dinding parking
dan turut menhentam corner
bunyi kuat gile
akak ingat dah pecah tangki minyak ku
tp menonong drive juga sebab ku tak sanggup nk tgk
karang ku langsung tak sampai rumah sebab terlebih emo
jeling  kat pintu blkg nmpk kesan calar, sikit je, tp mcm dalam gak..
jln tun razak mcm tahu2 pulak akak tgh mood tak elok.. smooth je tak jem
sampai taska, turun baru tgk betul2
fuhhhh pfffffff calar kat pintu passenger belakang, and besi body bawah pintu ku ada mcm kemek sikit
huwaaaaa!!!!

akak kan.. tiap kali keta akak tercalar, hati akak bagai tersagat jua
mcm terasa dihiris
konon2 sehati sejiwa la kan
tp sayang, keta ni besi, tak mcm bdn kita manusia yg boleh heal dan sel2 tubuh boleh tumbuh kembali
kalau kereta yg calar/kemek alamat takkan sama lagi mcm dulu.. walau di ketuk di cat cemana pun, pada akak.. ia akan kekal gitu..

hmm terima je la.. redha dan redah je la
kalau ini balasan mulut laser ku mengumpat org/eksyen dgn org blkg tadi; atau knock to my head from the above, thank you GOd for the 'gentle reminder' please forgive me
kalau ini dorongan utk cepat beli keta baru (ahaks) subhanallah syukran ya Allah.. moga di mudahkan

Akhirnya

akhirnya
semlm terkeluar juga dari mulut TB
'err.. abng nk tanya ni.. yg ayang minat sgt Faizal Tahir tu kenape? hensem sgt ke?'
wakakkakaaaa.... patutkah ku gelak guling2??
ok lah meh nk jawab.
saya hanya suka i.e takde la minat giler sampai takleh tido mlm kalau tak tgk muka dia. saya lagi tak buleh tido  malam kalau tak tgk muka TB yg hensem itu.
saya suka sora dia yg saya rasa tidak dibuat-buat dan tidak kontrol  macho. lontaran suara yg jelas, bertenaga dan penuh perasaan membuatkan saya ada 'feel' bila dengar lagu dia..
selain dia, saya rasa hanya ada beberapa org penyanyi yg saya suka ssebab saya rasa suara mereka unik iaitu JayJay, Zainal Headwind, Jamal Abdillah, M. Nasir, Anuar Zain dan Pakcik Baha.
mereka ini rasa rasa selamba saja boleh menyanyi live tanpa mengecewakan pendengar.
oh saya juga suka dengar dan nyanyi lagu Saleem sebab suara dia dan lagu dia yg begitu akan menyebabkan org tidak perasan sekiranya saya off-tune.haha. masih adaa..
Faizal Tahir tidak lah hensem mana.. lebih tidak hensem bila buka baju depan org ramai. buruk benar conteng2 perut gitu.

eh bila pakcik baha nk buat album eh? senyap jee.

wiken yang penin

lama tak update huh?
dah tak dak cerita nk tulis..  takat nk cerita makan apa, masak apa.. bosann aah dongg
wiken lepas sungguh fenattss..
Mak Nah and Tok Mat turun sini, so wiken were spent hunting for brg kenduri
penat akak jln2 kat semua house sampai nk fengsannnn.. tu pun sempat masuk 2 kedai je, belum tour jln tar lagi tuh
nak pulak hari sabtu... kan ada pasar malam
fuhhh ramainya umatttt ngalahkan time nk raya!
sebenarnya penat penin kepala nk mikir nk beli apa, yg mana satu nk pilih
dah semua practically dok la harap kat akak je buat pilihan.. duuuhhh!! org lain nk kawen akak yg penin2 kepala. tu la org lelaki, semua taktau
akak kawin dulu pun takde penin mcm ni
dah siap list semua apa nk kena beli/siapkan.
tp org lelaki ni bukan nk amik tau apa pun
nasib baik dia tunggu bayar je hehe,
akak main tunjuk2, adik akak dok standby kat kaunter
TB sama TokMat cam besa lepak kat luar siap2 minum2
pastu komplen pasai org pompuan suka tgk brg lama2
huhh mmg la lama cik abang oii.. nk pilih yg cantik, sesuai dgn tema bagai tp paling murah.. haa tak ke mencabar tu??

sudahnya kitorang cuma beli bunga telur 100pcs, beg souvenier and sejadah
kotak2 berkat tu blom lagi.. baru ku dok belek2, ada org sudah sound.. 'yangg oo yangg!!'
hmm suka ati hgpa laa

ahad tu again pi tgk kedai kain.. ingatkan jekel dah buka kat seky 7 tu, sekali blom daaa
makanya terus la kami berjemaah ke SACC mall aja, gulati's pun ada sale gak
adik ku kata nk beli kain utk wat hantaran, tp pilihnya idak.. geram je aku
taknak beli sudah, kain utk bini hg jugak, kalau utk kakak hg ni takpe gak,sanggup la ku redah kain2 tu hehe
at the same time ku ingat nk cari kain utk kaklong anak beranak
tp dok pikir2 bila nk bgnya, sempat ke tak
pastu tak de pulak corak yg seswai.. apa lagi..penin bertambah.
sudahnya mak aku sama TB gigih meredah tempat kain remnant, only $20 per pc, tak kira besar mana
dpt la 3 pasang kat Mak Nah, sengeh besar sampai ke mlm dia..hehe

maybe nk kena pi jenguk2 kat nilai jugak kot..
bunga telur nak kena tambah, aku pun dah penin nak bagi apa utk tetamu
at least cari bekas cantik2 utk isi sweets ke coklat ke
tp dok pikir karang org buang ke apa.. so nk cari benda yg org boleh simpan ke recycle ke
aahh penin.. penin..
lagi satu nk cari bahan utk letak kat kotak hantaran
tu pun penin lagi nk perah otak nk wat pesen apa

tgk la bila2 larat sikit.. penat la nk jln2 time2 panas gini

STop breastfeeding?

eversince i know i want to be a mother, i always wanted to fully breastfeed my child.
i thought its easy peasy.. ye lah selak je kan, apa yg susah sgt
mom always tell me stories of the hardship of being a mother, including how her child (termasuk aku lah tu) will bite the nipples until they bled, or how the breast become so engorge she developed mastitis.
but i never scared me. i stil thought it' nothing much.
when i finally have my first child, alhamdulillah i manage to feed her, eventhough i was late by 3 days..
i tried to get her suck but i hardly saw anything. as if i has no milk. baby cried and everyone will pester me to give her formula. i give up and formula she had. when the masseur came later, suddenly there's so much milk came out - during the massage, the shoot like a fountain. i was so confused, and frustrated. i know they'r in there! but why they wont came out!! why?! why!
aisyah was warded due to jaundice that day, so when the masseur leave i tried pumping the milk to bring it to hospital. i only manage to get less than 1oz..
few haours later i pump again.. and again..
still i only manage <2oz.. until  my mom ask me to stop : your' going to spoil your breast later!
the pumping actually did good, when aisyah finally reunited with me, she sucks well and my  milk production increased. im one happy mother.
but once a day i will put her on formula. especially for night feed when im too tired to move.
people said i MUSt, or it'l be problem when i start working  later.
so aisyah grew well.. she had no transition problem because she's accustomed to the bottle at such early age. i'l give her direct whenever im with her and i pumped her daily stocks until she's about 9mths. my milk production start to decrease by then.
but i was not 100% contended because i wanted my child to be 100% breastfed.
aisyah is fully off my breast when i found out i was pregnant with aliya. she;s almost 2 at that time.
its not really hard since she only had me for her sleep.
still it wrecks my heart to see her wailing. its disturbing enough for everybody. my husband almost gave in.
alhamdulillah we passed it.

when aliya came, i'm so determined to fully breastfeed her. i even bought my self 2 sets of breastpump (1 i hardly use and plan to resell it)
but history repeats itself, my first 3 days went 'milkless'. yess they say there'l be no milk but colostrum. but i hardly saw any liquid came out!
aliya too, was warded for jaundice. but this time i produce lots more milk, i managed to get her almost half bottle, just enough for her feed.
few weeks before the end of my maternity leave, i began to put her on bottle schedule. she's okay.
when i returned to work, i manage to get her daily stocks covered, but sometimes the nursery will have to give her formula if they'r not enough. its good since we dont have to worry about her milk supply. except that i had to really 'work hard' and must follow a strict pumping schedule or i'l risk losing the beat.
the only problem was whenever im around, she will totally refuse bottle. she insists her milk to be 'segar dari ladang'. its fine with  me, since i believe it'l help my milk production.
we bought lots of bottle - all kind available just to encourage her to drink from it. not working. weird, she can drink from her bottle, provided fit with Dr Baby's teat, but she will never ever drink from whatever bottle whenever she stepped out of nursery. not even the same bottle n teat i brought to nursery.
problem came when i had to work out of town. i had to had my husband follow me to babysit aliya because i dont have the heart to left her, im afraid she cant sleep at night if im away. aliya really test our patience when she refused to drink her milk when i'm at work! poor hubby had to put up with her crying and high-pith wailing.. she even cried non-stop from 9 till i finished at almost 12!! poor little thing..
nothing we can do to persuade her to take bottle. she dunt even want her pacifier (somehow im glad she didnt as i might be struggling to wean her from that as well..)
now she's had started solid and eat and drink almost everything, so i worry less if she dont take her milk whenever im away and she's not at nursery.
i planned to continue breastfeeding her until at least she's 2 year-old, but we found out that she's gonna get a little sister soon. i wean her off my chest easily - just few drops of hersyey's chocolate syrup and she went 'eeiiii.. yekk!' she stayed away from my breast almost immediately, but at times still she'l beg me and softly cried wantingly.. again his dad was persistent enough to handle this (again) even he's the one to warn me not to lose it!!
today, aliya still refuse to take her milk (except while in nursery, i still dunno why??!!!) she prefer to drink straight from her cup or glass like us adult do. i had to mix her milk with milo so that she got some milk, especially when it's long weekend or holiday. daddy dont complaint when he had to babysit them anymore because he can feed them anything - mostly Mcdonalds. that's will keep them happy until mommy return.

next baby, still i dreaming of fully breastfeeding. and wanting as much to made up what i lost - i regret not 'serious' enough pumping while at work. i hope i can be more dilligent and kick-off the malasness. hope i can provide enough stocks.
but i learned, its good to introduce bottle earlier. (but aliya was okay at first???) so that baby will get used to it and easier for me to train him/her later.
hope i'l be blessed with good supply and hubby/family will continue to support and encourage me to do that.
Insyaallah

some will ask
1. when we should stop?
 - some says we shoul bf until 2 yrs.. but some says we can go further, depending on you. but surely not more than the age of 7 8 years, right? what an ugly sight.. hehe.
unless u planned to conceive, or already conceived. even that, some people and medical expert says that it wont affect and not harmful. some people i know even continue bf both her child and everybody is fine. but i chose not to because i believe when you bf, it'l cause contraction to the uterus and i cant take the risk. and i'm afraid that i wont be able to provide enough supply to the unborn baby ( i dont really eat well during pregnancy i suppose). again, it depends on you and your medical condition. talk to your doctor if you have concern. talk to people.. eventho they hardly make sense, sometime old wives  are right, u know ;-p

2. how to stop?
it really depend on the child. u can put anything to himder him from coming near aor loathe the teat, but a persistent ones may still attach to it, or the smarter ones will simply ask you to wash them! it's much a try and error. i always pretend that it hurts and it works because the kids just cant stand to see me cry or hurt hehe
u can put some'blood' to add more drama.
if your' not in hurry, u can prepare the child by gradually lessen the session. maybe to reduce it to nighttime only, or sleeptime only.

perut updates

dua menjak ni makin menjadi2 pulak sesi loya2
patutnya dah nk masuk seken trimester ni kurang sikit la kan?
ni makin serius je
hari ni dari pagi seram sejuk (ye la opis ku sejuk nk mampppsss sampai krem kaki ku)
akak mmg tak tahan sejuk2 ni
nk minum air sebarang tak boleh.. dah tak larat nk telan kopi o je
nk minum air kosong tak lalu dek tekak
sudahnya akak penin2 lalat - low blood pressure
wiken lepas jumpa gynae, TB bgtau aku selalu tak larat
dr ckp normal la, but it shud be gone in another 2 weeks, hopefully
dan dan tu TB sound ' haa ingat ehh.. 2 minggu je lagi, pasni dah takde ye penat tak larat semua ni..'
ececehhhh ingat semua org pregnant sama ke? kaklong muntah2 sampai kena tahan wad sampai masuk 7 bulan tau! kalau nk compare dgn akak mmg takleh lawan aa.. kes akak ni kira mcm geli2 ujung jari je la
kitorang pun bukan suka rasa gini.. ingat bes sgt ke loya2, muntah, penin semua ni??

mommy now is 12weeks, heartbeat baby ok, stable and strong rhythm, bloodflow looks okay
ukurlilit perut belum sempat ukur
perkembangan baby sejajar dan EDD 27/9/2010
harap2 bersalin lepas raya
silap2 raya ni mmgku tak ke mana, standby kat rumah je lah kot..

You'r always here

Nota: Sila tukar kepada mode jiwang 2.0

Sometimes.. words are just not enough
they'r not even be able to justify
sometime, something are meant to be felt to understand..

Where do I begin

To tell a story of how great a love can be

The sweet love story that is older than the sea

The simple truth about the love she bring to me

Where do I start

With her first hello

She gave a meaning to this empty world of mine

That never be another love another time

She came into my life and made the living fine

She fills my heart

She fills my heart with very special thing

With angel songs and wild imagining

She fills my soul with so much love

That anywhere I go

I never lonely

With her around

Who could be lonely

I reach for her hand

It's always there

How long does it last

Can love be measured by the hour in day

I have no answer now but this much I can say

I know that I need her till the stars all burn away

And she'll be there

 
Dear Duli Yang Maha Mulia Tuanku Tuan Besar,
we might glare, snapped and say words to each other
i might be making faces, dumping things
you will call me names
but when we hold each other's hand,
nothing else matter..
everything is forgotten, forgiven
because we know that love is there.. stil there
and hope it stays..

cheer up!

A few good one-liners


1. Regular naps prevent old age... especially if you take them while driving.


2. Having one child makes you a parent; having two makes you a referee.

3. Marriage is a relationship in which one person is always right and the other is the husband!

4. They said we should all pay our tax with a smile. I tried - but they wanted cash.

5. A child's greatest period of growth is the month after you've purchased new school uniforms.

6. Don't feel bad. A lot of people have no talent.

7. Don't marry the person you want to live with, marry the one you cannot live without... but whatever you do, you'll regret it later.

8. You can't buy love . . but you pay heavily for it.

9. True friends stab you in the front.

10. Forgiveness is giving up my right to hate you for hurting me.

11. Bad officials are elected by good citizens who do not vote.

12. Laziness is nothing more than the habit of resting before you get tired.

13. My wife and I always compromise. I admit I'm wrong and she agrees with me.

14. Those who can't laugh at themselves leave the job to others.

15. Ladies first. Pretty ladies sooner.

16. It doesn't matter how often a married man changes his job, he still ends up with the same boss.

17. They call our language the mother tongue because the father seldom gets to speak.

18. Saving is the best thing. Especially when your parents have done it for you.

19. Wise men talk because they have something to say; fools talk because they have to say something.

20. Real friends are the ones who survive transitions between address books.

nyampah tak?

pagi yg cantik
anda bangun 10 minit lebih awal
siap lambat2..nyanyi2 sebab ada masa lebih kan
doa pun boleh lah panjang sikit
masuk keta setat enjin
hati berbunga2
selamattt.. pasti perjalanan akan lancar.. masih awal ni
elok lepas simpang terjojol biji mata
tgk kereta dah berbaris dan masing2 pakat tunjuk lampu brek
huwaaaaa!!!! why? why??? WHY???????

rupanya ada lori parking tepi  jalan
@$%%&**%#@#$@#@!#$@%^&()()()

incik drebar, boleh tak... saya minta sgt2 ni. TOLONG la parking la elok2.????
incik tau tak kebangangan incik ni dah mencetuskan kebengangan seluruh persatuan pemandu malaya?

anda terus stress
dan sampai ofis sepuluh minit lebih lewat dari biasa

when women let go the cradle

org kata
tangan yg menghayun buaian itu mampu menggegar dunia

lately kecoh pulak (ke buat2 kecoh) pasai org pompuan mendominasi pekerjaan
terutama di sektor awam
aikk.. kata takde diskriminasi gender, awat hari ni baru terasa ke incik-incik abang sekelian?
sapa yg layak, org tu lah dpt kan? tak gitu?
la ni pun kat universiti pompuan lebih ramai dari lelaki
top student pun manjang org yg lemah lembut ini lah jugak
tentang kenapa kaum lelaki agak ketinggalan ni, ambo ndak le komen lelebih
pasai ambo tahu org lelaki ni, sebenarnya antara malas-mahu-dan tidak je.. tak gitu TB?
dan modal deme selalunya tak lari lebih kurang gini je lah 'eleh kami tak pass spm pun takpe, buleh hidup, buleh kaya raya jugak.. kami saje je taknak. karang kalau kaya kami nk kawen 2 3.. haa kamu ndak gitu?

rasanya perempuan sekarang lebih ke depan kerana lelaki gak
ye lah kalau tak kerana ayah yg beri kebenaran belajar tinggi2, kuar duit support kita semua ingat kita boleh senang2 berjaya  camgini ke sekrg?
tp, ingat tak mak kita selalu pesan belajar pandai, esok boleh keja ada duit sendiri takde lah dok mengharap duit laki yo..
sebab apa mak pesan gitu? haa.. sapa dah berlaki tu tau lah kot hehe

perempuan ni katanya lemah
sikit2 nangis
tapi airmata wanita tu lah sebenarnya keindahan.. tak ke meruntun hati tgk pompuan nangis.. dgn air mata berlinang ke pipi.. mata bening sayu.. hidung kemerahan tahan hingus.. what a beautiful sight
mmg cair le sapa melihat..
tanpa fight teruk2, kasi kuar airmata sikit je, wanita  mampu mengubah keputusan..tak ke terer? haa itu lah kekuatan dalam kelemahan namanya
yg nangis sikit2 gitu la.. kalau meraung sambil cebek2 muka mmg la buruk benor (yup aku dah check sendiri taim nangis sila lihat muka anda dicermin ya.. konpem dan dan tu berenti haha tgk muka sendiri mcm mak lampir je)
but stil tak le sehuduh lelaki meraung kan??

dalam lemah wanita, tp kalau dah dicabar
haa siap la ko..
sampai masa depa bangkit semula
tak kasi can punyaaa
so be careful
terutama dgn wanita bergelar isteri
bila hati dah luka..mmg susah nk pulihkan
kalaupun boleh reda, tapi konpem takkan lupa
selagi boleh sabar, mereka akan sabar
tp sampai masa.. tunggu je the last straw - it can be the smallest thing but that will set the time bomb

aikk kata takmo tulih panjang2 dah

Sesal dulu pendapatan

nyesal kawen??
ish ishhh..

pagi tadi kat hotfm hotchat sembang pasal prg yg nyesal kawen
puncanya bila satu perempuan ini telah hantar emel kat suraya bgtau dia menyesal kawen dgn suami dia
baru kawen 4 tahun gitu. tp dia ni tak pandai masak. dia dah cuba belajar masak tp hasben dia dok kondem dia masak tak sedap. tu je.
ntah la.. agaknya laki dia mulut bacul sgt kot. kot ye pun nk menegur isteri, pandai2 la berlapik kan
kan isteri dah kecik ati
kalau kecik ati je tak pe gak, boleh pujuk balik, tp kalau dah sampai asa mcm 'menyesal kawen' hmm parahh tuu.

personally ku rasa barangsiapa isteri2 yang rasa 'menyesal' berkahwen dgn suami masing.. mcm berdosa besar je? ye la, mcm tak redha dgn suami lah gitu kan?
unless la lepas kawen baru tau suami kaki pukul ke, kaki botol ke atau perkara2 lain yg boleh membahayakan kesihatan lojik gak ler. tp kalau setakat tup2 dpt tau suami tak reti baca.. alahaiii...
yg sorg lagi pulak nyesal kawin sebab laki dia tak penah kuar duit belanja rumah dan anak2, sampai duit raya anak2 pun biniii jugakk yg kasi.padahal laki gaji besor.  yg si bini tu pulak, nk jaga hati punya pasal tak penah la pulak ditanya kemana duit lakinya. hmm jaga hati tak kena gaya. yg hang pi canang dlm redio semalaya tu buleh pulak?

like ku kata tadi, menyesal tu bagaikan tak redha dgn apa yg berlaku.
pertama : tak redha dgn jodoh/takdir yg Allah tentukan, sedangkan ketentuanNya itu adalah yg terhebat dan terbaik utk kita sebenarnya (andai kamu mengetahuinya) mmglah 'kelebihan/kebaikan' yg Allah turunkan pada kita takkan dtg bergolek mcm yg kita dok bygkan, tp somehow, redha lah kerana hikmah pasti ada.

kedua : lazimnya bila menyesal kita akan ckp 'nyesal aku kawen dgn dia ni, kedekut, berkira taik idung masin!.. kalau aku tak kawen ntah2 aku dah kaya raya' atau 'hmm kalau saya kawen dgn sepupu saya si Harun tu tentu dia tak kondem saya cam gini huhu..'
amboi2 sedap mulut.. mana tau apa akan jadi kalau kita kawen dgn org lain? ntah2 sama je. ntah2 lagi besar dugaannya. dah memang ditentukan perjalanan hidup kita akan di uji sebegini, terima. Face It! paling penting is how we deal it/do anything about it. and to remind you, there's no such thing as 'kalau lah..' for us muslim, if you claimed u believe in Qada dan Qadar.

bab nikah kawen ni bukan perkara mudah, dan bukan perkara yg boleh di ambil mudah.
bila dah sehati nk berkahwin, biarlah mulakan langkah dgn berbaik sangka dgn pasangan. prepare siap2 dalam diri yg pasti akan ada kekurangan dalam pasangan yg kita akan rasa tak selesa atau tak setuju. jgn buat2 buta pada kelemahan pasangan, wpun masa tu kita taktau lagi apa dia. buka hati buka minda (jgn dok ready nk buka baju je haha) terimalah pasangan bukan sebagai satu kepingan yg lengkap (ecewah) tp masih ada ruang2 gelap misteri yg hanya mampu disuluh oleh cahaya perkahwinan. tu diaa.. wahaha akukah yg menulis ini??

bila menegur pasangan biarlah berhemah dan berhikmah.
tak pun buat mcm laki gwe - agak2 tak sedap kat tekak dia, takyah makan atau masak sendiri. ku sendiri2 paham le, besok2 tayah masak dah hahaha
org lelaki ni mmg la kalau bercakap tak fikir panjang, ikut sedap mulut dia je. 'open' katanya..
open hangguk hang kalau bini dok la makan ati..
imejin kalau bini lak dok kondem 'apa la abg ni, baru kejap dah pancit' or.. or.better. 'hmm..kecik'
haaa mau terjunam ego tuan2 yaa! tau pulak nk kecik ati
sama la kami org pompuan benda kecik2 pun mmg nk amik ati punya la..
tp org pompuan pulak, belajar2 la terima hakikat lelaki mmg lagu  tu.. apa depa ckp takyah la boh dalam hati 100 perseng. amik yg perlu2 shj. yg rasa2 boleh bengkekkan hati takyah ingat. delete terus. demi kedamaian rumahtangga sejagat.
bak kata seorang ni (aku tak ingat sapa) 'man need to feel more, and woman need to think more'

seperkara lagi, kalau dok ulang2 ckp menyesal..menyesal..
seakan kita dah akur dgn kegagalan
kam on la wumen!
this is our battle, so fight!
tak kira la dah 4 tahun mencuba
yg penting jgn givap
Nabi pun berdakwah 23 tahun, tu pun tgk la kita umat hari ini
ask ourselve - what can i do about it? strategise, cari peluang
think! think! think!
org lelaki ni bukan cerdik sgt pun, kalau tak, takkan la kita isteri ini sebenarnya penentu haluan rumahtangga
yes mereka itu pemimpin
tp sekadar pemimpin yg pandai delegate je la..
bab operasi org pompuan juga yg kena turun padang

setuju? tak setuju?
taip komen anda dan hantar ke 32444

melaka part II

just few snippets from melaka hari tu

one hepi femily.. aliya menten macho dalam apa jua keadaan

chillin' out in the hotel's pool. org takde, ini kolamm kamii yg punyaaa..huarggggghh!!

ada rupa pelatih ikan lumba2 tak? haha

mengidam cendol dari kl lagi.. tp TB tak kasi sebab ku batuk

kat melaka jua bertemu jodoh.. nasib baik sedapp

oh gambaq naik bot tak clear.. malas nk letak lah. sapa nk tgk sila pi naik sendiri ya hehe

Aisyah's litel birthdayy partayyy

sori eh.. mummy nk wat pos kena la tunggu maklong sama makcu donlod gambar dulu kan.. sebab nk cilok ahaha
nothing extravagant, just a small gathering with nearby frens and family, makan2 dan hantar sikit food ke masjid utk doa selamat
food pon simple2 jek

the cake ordered from supplier totap maklong haha.. 1 big lovely snow white cake with litel kapkek for the party pack. memula nk letak  muka aisyah, tp aisyah taknak.. dia ckp 'nanti org makan muka aisyah haa.. camna?' haha betui betui betuii kang ilang seri anak aku
party pack pun last menit purchase.. tp tokmama dah sesiap beli belon sama ponn ponn utk budak2 siap dgn maskeret google dan topi liplap2

present from Tok mama dan seisi rumah - henbeg youu....!

rasanya semua org dah tau kot aisyah peminat disney princess.. so semua hadia dia princess themed!! pink2 belakooo.. cuma auntie sheri je bagi buku sama kaler dora, and grand prize from abak&mami is not princess-thingy. but stil, theyr pink karerr

present from mami&abak - aisyah ingat tu kitorang  beli kat mana!! 'yg mami beli kat petronas tuu...' hahaha

another feveret present - pakai sampai taknak buka.. panas2 pun sanggupp!

gigih membega kaler baru.. hoho beh gilerr.. dpt ni terus tak pandang benda lain. checkout the shoes - thanks to Pakcik Edi. sebenornya pakcik kesian tgk anak buah dia tak penah pakai 'shoes' haha asyek pakai slipar je

ini from maklong.. 'mami.. esok pakai pegi sekolah ya?!'

another present from mami.. yg ni share dgn aliya tau! ku nk tgk berapa hari menda alah ni tahan hehe

tgk tu.. siap dgn 'teater' nk buat cerita sendiri.

actually tahun lepas lagi beli incase tatau  nk beli apa utk besday dia.. bought @ mph very cheap Rm24.90 siap ada dikon lagi, i think now pun mph ada sale buku2 gini murah2 <$30 mmg ku beli byk2 simpan sesiap utk besday sesapa hehe

aliya pun dapat hadiah jugak.. at lastt.. haha sebelum ni dok la pulun try baju kaklong je..

tahun depan haross ku buat tema lain pulak.

last but not least
ini muka 2 orang harus laa adaa kan  walaupun sipi2 hahaha

dan ini.. orang kuat penganjur. sesapa nk amik party planner lepas ni boleh la hubungi cikgu yati associate utk keterangan lanjut. komplimentari muffin bisa di atur.

nota penulis:
terima kasih pada mak dan abak dan seisi rumah kerana  bersusah payah buat majlis utk aisyah. wpun last minit sebab semua sibuk ada agenda lain wiken tu, still buat juga. minta maaf tak dpt tolong sgt sebab tak dpt cuti.
terima kasih juga kepada yg sudi hadir, terutama paktam sekuarga dan paknjang yg dtg jauh2
kepada kengkawan lain, minta maaf tak dpt jemput semua, sebab buat hari biasa kan, mlm pulak so jemput yg dekat2 je lah. nanti aisyah kawen insyaallah ku jemput semua.
kepada yg memberi, berbanyak2 terima kasih kerana bersusah payah, we all appreciate it so much! tahun depan bagi lagi ya?? hahaha lawak je

Azam baru

eh bosan eh tulis panjang2
binau mata nk baca
mulai hari ini saya berazam nk tulis pendek2 je
cukup-cukup saje
tp  padat dan tepat
habis cerita
sekian terima kasih

Didik atau ternak?

pg2 tadi ada ceramah kat radio, ada sentuh sikit2 pasal didikan anak
semlm pun ceramah maulidurrasul kat ofis.. tak byk sikit terasa jugak nk improve didikan anak, sekurang2nya supaya mereka jadi muslim yg mengenal can cinta pada Allah dan Rasulullah..

nk didik anak ni bukan senang
kalau org dok cerita penat, susah payah, sakit, derita ibu nk mengandung, nk beranak
believe me.. its nothing!
sakit kejap je.. dan semua bergantung pada kita, tabah hati atau tidak
tapi nk didik anak lepas lahir bukan shj menuntut pengorbanan besar2an, tp kebijaksanaan, hikmah, taqlim (cewahh baru dpt semlm haha) dan mcm2 lagi lahh. tahap kesabaran mesti paling tinggi, kalau boleh biar habis meter tu.. kalau tak sabar, haa mula lah ada yg nk pijak anak
mmg org kata nk didik anak bukan bermula dari dalam kandungan, tp sebelum mak bapak tu kawin lagi
haa cemana tu?
makna nya, setiap bakal ibu dan ayah siang2 lagi kena siapkan diri
kerana anak2 mencerminkan ibu bapa.. like mother like doter.. bapa borek anak rintik
mmg betullah perumpamaan itu
kalau peribadi ibu bapa dah comey, cantik, insyaallah anak2 akan mengikut acuan yg sedia ada
sebab dna bukan shj menentukan rupa paras tp juga peribadi dan perangai
sebab itu org suruh berkahwin dgn keturunan yg baik2
bila berkahwin biarlah mulakan hidup dgn cara yg baik
tp org skrg (termasuk aku) langkah kaki ke alam perkahwinan dgn sebeban hutang
awal2 lagi dah terlibat dgn riba.. camne tu?
nk mula proses buat anak kena ada adab, baca doa. bukan main taram je
bila dah mengandung, dua-dau ibu dan bapa kena main peranan.. didik anak dalam kandungan dgn perkataan2 yg baik, baca al-quran selalu.. jaga perangai dan tingkah laku
jgn harap kat maknye aje. ibu mengandung ni selalu letih2.. tambah2 bila perut dah besar.. nk bernafas pun semput, apa lagi nk baca quran.. mmg mengah aa.bila mak penat, ayah ambil alih bacakan quran kat anak
kalau malas sgt nk baca yg panjang2, baca surah pendek pun takpe..kurang2 Al-fatihah dan Al-Ikhlas

bila anak lahir, azan/iqamahkan
lepas tu beri nama yg baik2.. nama yg elok maknanya.. bukan ikut sedap mulut je
pastu ejaan kemain.. cam Ellyies Dhamareeanna Naybeellaa Sophealillyanna tahapahapa
hambek kau.. menggagau budak tu nk mengeja nama sendiri
pastu sunat cukur rambut dan akikahkan pada hari ke-7 ye, bukan hari ke 30
org sekarang tunggu mak lepas pantang baru nk buat
sebab si mak nk voque sama hayun buai (haha.. aku kah itu?)
kenduri cukur jambul sekrg kemain. ngalahkan kenduri kawin maknye
nk ikut trend punya pasal, kdg2 sampai ke tahap membazir dah
paham la nk cantik2 semua kan, tp biarlah berpada.. duit reben bunga yg merimbun tu sedeqah lagi elok..ye dak?
bila anak dah besar sikit, mak abah kena la jaga percakapan, tingkah laku
sebab anak2 ni mengikut cth terdekat
kalau tak caya.. tgk la lenggok ckp anak sebijik cemana kita ckp dgn dia..
dan mcmana kita layan suami/isteri kita, camtu lah esok2 anak2 akan buat kat pasangan depa
tak caya? haa me and TB adalah the living example haha
betui dak mak, abak?
and aisyah is exactly me and TB.. cemana kami ckp dgn dia, camtu la dia ckp balik dgn kita and adik dia
mmg la time marah lupa semua tu.. main tengking je anak2
bila dgn aisyah buat the same baru nk nyesal
besok2 aliya dah pandai ckp haa siapp lerr..
ni aisyah dah masuk 4 tahun.. baru boleh tulis A-F, G.. S pun terlebih2 ekor dia hihi
tak kisah la terbalik ke senget ke atleast dia kenai hurup, and aku tau dia tulis S
bila org cerita anak derang dah boleh baca gitu gini.. somehow aku terasa jugak.. hehe biasa la kan.. mak mmg ober, mulalah susah hati nk hantar anak pi sekolah baju merah la baju kelabu la..
paksa anak tgk astro buka sound kuat2 dgn harapan dia terer ckp omputeh.. haha
padahal anak aku laaagi suka conteng dinding rumah sama main mekap
wpun dok canang kat diri sendiri anak2 tak sama.. still deep inside nk jugak anak kita atleast at par dgn anak org lain.. mula la nk compare kiri kanan
yg anak dok nganga tak kenal alif ba ta tak pulak kau susah ati ye Ta?
dah la aisyah taknak pi sekolah.. jenuh dok pujuk.. bapaknye rilek je.. eh ku rasa bapak2 mmg gitu ler kan?
alah.. besok2 6 tahun pegi lah tu..
ye ke?
sekrg ni 6 thn masuk pra-sekolah tu cikgu expect budak2 dah tera tulis semua tau! takkan anak kita nk nganga je karang
pastu tensen sebab dia sorg je tak reti
pastu taknak pi sekolahh.. haa sapa nk jawap?
tadika skrg pun dah advance.. siap ada homework bagai.. kesian pulak tgk budak2
patutnya buat play2 sudah la kan..
so budak2 yg masuk lewat i.e umor 5 thn selalu ada prob
sebab by the school's expectation and KPI budak 5 thn dah pandai mcm2
ye lah dah kelas derang stat at 3..
susah2 aku homeschooled je lah
aah aka emo la pulak ni
karang tulis panjang terus jadi surat resign pulak..

it's 4!

she turn 4 today

alhamdulillah she's been one good adorable girl

cheeky but honest and free-minded

knows what she wants (she want to be snow white, btw)

a smart girl indeed... sometimes too smart to make people go her way

still a pemalu..  mcm mak pak dia la kan

but dah pandai posing amik gambar sendiri kat henfon
love to play with water, but stil penakut nk swim seriously

siapa sangka dari sekecil ini

now she's this big

i love her

i love her smile

i love her cute curly hair

i love being her mother, pampering her with hugs and kisses

as i always afraid i dont love her enough

my girl,
i always pray to Allah that, you, will
- be loved by everyone around you
- be a good muslimah, tak tinggal solat, puasa, zakat dan dimurahkan rezeki utk menunaikan haji
- be anak solehah, yg akan membela ibu dan abak setiap masa hingga ke akhirat
- menjaga auratmu, pandanganmu daripada yg haram
- good-looking dan sentiasa menenangkan setiap yg melihatmu
- gifted with 'hikmah' dan 'aqal', semoga menjadi org bijaksana seperti Ali (ra) dan Sy Aisyah
- dimudahkan urusan di dunia dan akhirat
- gifted with mulut yang manis yg bercakap perkara yg baik2 shj tetapi petah berbicara utk membela agamamu
- gifted with hati yg 'lembut' dan sentiasa cintakan keamanan dan kebaikan
- sentiasa dimurahkan rezeki mu dari sumber yg halal dan terus menerus, tidak dibebankan dengan hutang-piutang dan tidak meminta2 kepada yg lain melainkan kpd Allah Taala
- ditemukan jodoh yg  baik yg sentiasa menyayangi dan membahagiakanmu serta di kurniakan keturunan yg baik2
- terpeliharalah kamu dari kejahatan manusia dan seluruh makhluk Allah
- dikurniakan kesihatan yg baik

Istajibullah humma du'a ana..
Aminn.. aminn.. Ya Rabbal 'Alamin..

SELAMAT ULANGTAHUN KE-4 DARI MUMMY DAN ABAK!

like mummy like doter eh?!

my new obsession

now im obsessed with drink dispenser.
dah merata kedai ku jenguk tak jumpa pun yg juai menda alah ni

ni lah rupa dispenser tu kalau nk tau.. byk lagi design cantik2 like these ones :

alala santekk kan.. terus nmpk mcm sedappp je air tu.. agak2 kalau letak sirap pun sodapp jadinya. sirap wolveringgg laaagi sodappp! haha

memula jumpa dlm satu blog makcik kat San Diego ni, yg ada link kat blog ni

tak lama pastu terjumpa pulak kat giant.. glass made, siap ada 2 design - satu plain, satu lagi honeycomb

wallaaa mmg teruja lah

tp tgk rega $69.90... hmm pikir punya pikir kalau nk beli pun berapa kali sgt le nk gunaa.. pastu takde tempat nk simpan.. last2 tak beli
tp lepas tu dok teringat2.. TB pun macam suka..
pegi balik kat giant dah takde!! huwaaa!!
tu la lenkali kalau jumpa benda kita suka beli jee.. cinta pandang pertama mmg berbaloi baloii haha

so should the same goes to your love life? jumpa je org yg berkenan terus masuk  meminang.. tunggu2 karang melepass.. jgn kata gigit jari, gigit la segala sendi ke esofagus ke mmg gelap le peluang nk dpt balik..

kepada sesapa yg pernah jumpa benda alah ni dijual kat mana2 sila bgtau ya!
ke kalau orang ostolia tu  kalau rajin, tolong2 la riki kat pasar malam kat sana hehe
bantu-membantu itu kan amalan mulia.
kesian weh.. ibu mengandung mengidam ni.... wakakakkaka!!

bila bapak jaga anak...

seminggu yang lepas kami sekeluarga telah berkampung di melaka...nak wat camna kan....career woman la katakan che Ta tu....so Mr Ana la yang kena jadi drebar merangkap babysitter.....

So..pas ngantor Che Puan pi melawat kawasan jajahan....kami 3 beranak balik la hotel...dan jenjalan la sikit..budak2 tu mana leh dok bilik lama lama..boring....

Lepas satu satu permainan diaorang nak cuba.... at least dapat la gak bergembira dari dok terperap dalam bilik kan kan ...

petang tu pas amik Che Puan, kami lepak jap kat kota melaka sambil mengirup cendol...

Ni cerita zoo plak.... bosan dah jalan2 kat supermarket.... saja la pas ngantor che puan pi hang tuah jaya...lajak depak sikit jumpa zoo.... kena bayar tuk bapaknya saja...kanak2 free.

Memula mang semangat nak naik tren dalam zoo...tunggu punya tunggu...tak jalan pun itu tren...

So we decide tuk jalan la dulu pelan2....si Aliya berlajan tau dalam zoo....tak nak dukung pun...pergh...seronok kot tgk binatang banyak....

gambar2 lain nanti la soh che Ta uploadkan ye.......

Updates

lama tak updet eh..
rindu ke?? hehe

minggu lepas seminggu berkampung di melaka
ada kerja sikit, hangkut budak2 sama bapaknye sekali
itu lah dia org pompuan bila berkerjaya
dua-dua nk kena timbang sama rata
biaqlah apa org nk kata.. yang  penting aku bahagia
walaupun bawak semua, kerja kena lah buat betul2 jugak kan
jgn ingat nk pi berjalan jaa..
tp apa2pun kudos kepada Tuan Besar yg bersusah payah jadi drebar dan babysitter
love you so  much for the invlovement and sacrifice
bukan senang nk jaga budak 2 org tu
tp TB siap bawak derang pi zoo lg! hehe hebat!
aisyah pulak tak berapa sihat.. makan tak lalu.. hari2 kena umpan pi mcdonel
aliya haa cam biasa makan tak berenti. cuma susu dia tak nak. so pg2 brekfes kasi dia mkn cereal+fresh  milk.. tu je la susu dia. kdg2 ku bg susu kotak tp yg ada perisa. tu pun sikit2 je dia minum. tp kalau milo, sirap, fresh oreng haa lajuuu je

apa2pun we had good time in melaka
siap beli swimming suit sorang satu haha
gigih nk swimming la konon

cuma ku letih la.. by malam dah tak larat tp kalau tak kuar jenjalan rugi la pulak kan
so gagahkan diri jugak la
mlm2 cantik byk lampu2

ahh gambaq nnt la upload hehe