thats the best shot hehe, amik sendiri
hubby not really keen bab2 cegini
can u see my bump?
ok pusing skett.. haa nmpk tak?
i actually did shot my naked tummy haha
looks quite enormous, but maluuu la mau tyg sini ekeke
Friday, July 25, 2008
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Cinta ku beralih arah??
i noticed something had changed recently..
was it me.. or its just the matter of time
maybe its the time to change, to breath the 'different' air
a change of prespective
or maybe i am not that 'reserved' anymore, or could be im losing my self-conciousness
what ever it is
im not saying goodbye
as im keeping my options open
i want to still be able to choose between you two:
Door 2 or Door 3
hehe
normally i would have my 'preferred' toilet cubicle anywhere i frequent
here at the office i used to step into the door 3, i dunno why. just feeling more comfortable in there. and part of it due to hygenic reason. i tot by limiting my usage of variable toilet seats will reduce the chances of me getting infections ... watever
but suddenly found myself frequented the second cubicle in the row instead of the usual third
and i realize the place is lot brighter
and i kinda like it
so for time being i'l try to stick to it hehe
was it me.. or its just the matter of time
maybe its the time to change, to breath the 'different' air
a change of prespective
or maybe i am not that 'reserved' anymore, or could be im losing my self-conciousness
what ever it is
im not saying goodbye
as im keeping my options open
i want to still be able to choose between you two:
Door 2 or Door 3
hehe
normally i would have my 'preferred' toilet cubicle anywhere i frequent
here at the office i used to step into the door 3, i dunno why. just feeling more comfortable in there. and part of it due to hygenic reason. i tot by limiting my usage of variable toilet seats will reduce the chances of me getting infections ... watever
but suddenly found myself frequented the second cubicle in the row instead of the usual third
and i realize the place is lot brighter
and i kinda like it
so for time being i'l try to stick to it hehe
at lastt!!!
yuhuuu
today got great news, somehow we were able to get our internet connection back!!
alhamdulillah
eventho i dunno for how long i'l be able to enjoy this
i'l savour every moment hihi
great to be back!!
hello everyone!!
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA
today got great news, somehow we were able to get our internet connection back!!
alhamdulillah
eventho i dunno for how long i'l be able to enjoy this
i'l savour every moment hihi
great to be back!!
hello everyone!!
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
sunday 6 july 2008
hubby having futsal tournament iwth his colleague, so i took the opportunity to have a girls day out with Aisyah. we went to klcc to catch a movie, mostly because she's been saying nk tgk wayangg.. for days.
of course i can only took my chance with kungfu panda, eventho i dun really fancy that kungfu kartun..tah la..but since many claim its good so..here we are.
get to klcc quite early, im hoping to get the ticket in ease since it weekend beb..sure ramai manusia nk tgk wayang. but got distracted all the wayy huhu
aisyah will drag me to EVERY toy car she saw!!!
at first it's thomas merry go round, i was lucky since the maintenance boy treat us with free ride hihi
then she wanted to try ALLL other rides as well. to keep her quiet i just put her down for a while, actuall reason was im out of coins.
i was soo desperate to shee shee by then but aisyah wanted to go inside toyrus pulakk
jenuh ku pujuk her to come with me to the toilet
by the time we reached tgv, the line was already snaking around.. hmmm
no choice but to get into the line.. with aisyah. luckily she wasnt the wandering type, but standing quietly next to me all the way to the ticket counter. once a while she will ask me to dokong her..yeah she must be tired berdiri lama2
finally got the ticket 15mint befor the show start, fhewww what a good timing
by this time aisyah already complaining her feet ache, she got blister from wearing the new mock bata crock we bought her the day before.. huhu jenuh laa aku kena dukungggg
in the theatre she behave like a 2yr old should behave.. poking around, sekejap nk sit alone, then nk sit on me, jap nk susu, jap nk baring. once she got her feet stuck between the seat, adoilaaaaa cuak gak aku bila dah puas tarik but kaki dia takmo kuar hnshshh hnssshh nasib dia tak meraung dlm tu!
halfway thru the movie she ask for milk, nasib le ada saki baki lagi, dah la i dint bring water. elok teguk susu dia pun zzz... aleleee.. aku pulak sayang nk kuar..alang2 dah byr tiket tu layan je laa hehe
after that we went looking for her new shoes, but since kaki dah sakit all the shoes make her feet ache.last2 i had to buy her socks.nasib baik she's getting better, siap buleh lari2 lagi
we had lunch at chillis..purposely because she can cool down and the coloring tools will kept her busy.
by 3, im all tired, no mood to shop anymore hehe..sampai terlupa actually my aim was to checkout mothercare's sale.
we went to pick up hubby then head straight home. sampai rumah everybody was damn tired and zzz...except for aisyah.. and of course she wont let me sleeppp..must teman her with her business hehe
sabar je laaaa
hubby tak sedar habaq dah.. padahal dia bukan main pun hehe
hubby having futsal tournament iwth his colleague, so i took the opportunity to have a girls day out with Aisyah. we went to klcc to catch a movie, mostly because she's been saying nk tgk wayangg.. for days.
of course i can only took my chance with kungfu panda, eventho i dun really fancy that kungfu kartun..tah la..but since many claim its good so..here we are.
get to klcc quite early, im hoping to get the ticket in ease since it weekend beb..sure ramai manusia nk tgk wayang. but got distracted all the wayy huhu
aisyah will drag me to EVERY toy car she saw!!!
at first it's thomas merry go round, i was lucky since the maintenance boy treat us with free ride hihi
then she wanted to try ALLL other rides as well. to keep her quiet i just put her down for a while, actuall reason was im out of coins.
i was soo desperate to shee shee by then but aisyah wanted to go inside toyrus pulakk
jenuh ku pujuk her to come with me to the toilet
by the time we reached tgv, the line was already snaking around.. hmmm
no choice but to get into the line.. with aisyah. luckily she wasnt the wandering type, but standing quietly next to me all the way to the ticket counter. once a while she will ask me to dokong her..yeah she must be tired berdiri lama2
finally got the ticket 15mint befor the show start, fhewww what a good timing
by this time aisyah already complaining her feet ache, she got blister from wearing the new mock bata crock we bought her the day before.. huhu jenuh laa aku kena dukungggg
in the theatre she behave like a 2yr old should behave.. poking around, sekejap nk sit alone, then nk sit on me, jap nk susu, jap nk baring. once she got her feet stuck between the seat, adoilaaaaa cuak gak aku bila dah puas tarik but kaki dia takmo kuar hnshshh hnssshh nasib dia tak meraung dlm tu!
halfway thru the movie she ask for milk, nasib le ada saki baki lagi, dah la i dint bring water. elok teguk susu dia pun zzz... aleleee.. aku pulak sayang nk kuar..alang2 dah byr tiket tu layan je laa hehe
after that we went looking for her new shoes, but since kaki dah sakit all the shoes make her feet ache.last2 i had to buy her socks.nasib baik she's getting better, siap buleh lari2 lagi
we had lunch at chillis..purposely because she can cool down and the coloring tools will kept her busy.
by 3, im all tired, no mood to shop anymore hehe..sampai terlupa actually my aim was to checkout mothercare's sale.
we went to pick up hubby then head straight home. sampai rumah everybody was damn tired and zzz...except for aisyah.. and of course she wont let me sleeppp..must teman her with her business hehe
sabar je laaaa
hubby tak sedar habaq dah.. padahal dia bukan main pun hehe
Thursday, July 03, 2008
kenangan terindah 'yg tak berapa nk indah'
accidentally found my wedding picture (on hubby's side) in his fren's fotopages
haha kelakarnye muka masing2
he was soo kurus
me - huhu hate the crown..
mekap - kwn hb tulun
the most frustrating the cameraman (also his fren) forgot to set the light properly so all pictures end up so dark and so huduh huhu!
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
i stumbled upon my post about my miscarriage experience..
think i wat to keep it here..as reminiscence of what i have been thru..
mmg takleh terima sebab baby guling2 lagi masa scan tu. susu i pun dah ada cuma tak byk la rasa sakit kat breast and bila picit kuar sikit.
miscarried at 16 weeks. actually from 6th weeks i start spotting, so dr kasi hormon, baby looks healthy enough, bila scan je dok lompat2. i scan everymonth sbb kena close monitoring because of spotting and bleeding tu. lepas 12 weeks hepi sgt sebab org kata, even my dr pun ckp risiko nk gugur dah drop. pastu aku dgn tawakalnya balik kg. on the way back bleeding sikit, tak byk pun cam mula2 nk period je, terus di hosp, scan baby stil ok but kena tahan kat wad suruh rilek 2 hr, masa tu 15 weeks, kuar spital mlm tu cam biasa tak sakit apa cuma bila bgun pagi noticed ada fresh blood secoit kat spender, pastu gi kencing tak berani guna toilet bowl, aku kencing kat lantai je incase ada benda apa2 kuar kang, masa kencing tu kuar mcm ketul daging, not blood clot. aku dah nangis gila sebab selalunya kalau mcm tu dah takde le tu. aku kol bgtau mak aku dia pun sama2 nangis. aku simpan and bawa gi tunjuk kat dr. dr siap konpius lagi amenda (?!!!) nurse dah pasang iv, mil aku dah pesan awal2 kalau dr ckp kena buang redha je kalau simpan pun kalau tak sihat/tak elok nnt lagi susah, aku n hubby diam je.. dlm hati mcm taknak tp aku konpius. dlm hati dok doa biarlah selamat lagi anak aku.. petg tu baru scan tengok ya allah baby ok ja dok lompat2 sommersoult lagi kat dlm aku dah hepi2, mak aku on the way nk mai kl dah sume org hepi. dr ckp esok boleh balik.. yahuu
mlm tu aku suruh hubby temankan tp dia takut kena halau ngn pak gad, aku buat muka sedih pun tak jln gak. tp kejap2 dia kol borak2 ngn aku. around 10 pm aku rasa sakit, cuak dahh.. pastu noticed timing dia makin kerap. eventho aku takde pengalaman rasa contraction but dari pembacaan dan citer org aku rasa contraction le kot. kul 11 lebih aku tak tahan dah aku panggil nurse minta painkiller kalau boleh amik. tak lama lepas tu nurse dtg nk injek. dlm dok sakit tu siap boleh tanya nurse'are u sure boleh amik ni? " dia ckp dr kata boleh. dah injek pun tak hilang gak sakit tu, aku siap doa dlm hati kalau sakit sebab baby nk kuar aku redha cuma bglah aku tanda supaya aku dpt bertenang, kalau bukan sebab baby nk kuar aku rela sakit camna punn.. huhu.. masa tu mmg taktau la nk ckp apa, konpius, takut, sedih sume ada dahla berjuang sorang2. hubby on the way fr s.alam, rupanya mil aku pun dah tak sedap ati jek so dia ikut sama. dlm kul 12 gitu aku rasa ada benda kuar kat tut teruss panggil nurse. si nurse ni pulak budak lagi bila dia tgk terus mcm nk pengsan! aku lagi ler cuak tahap gaban tah apa la yg ada kat tut aku tu agaknya, dia pesan kat aku akak jgn buat apa2 tau!!, dr lak ada kes kat op theatre, nasib baik ada dr pelatih kebetulan dtg menyembang kat wad tu (aku dok wad kelas 1 spital selayang) kalau wad OnG dia maybe nurse dia well prepared to handle kes cam gini kot. nasible dr pelatih tu cam rilek je, and sejurus lepas tu dr OnG aku dtg, dia sloewly ckp kat aku baby dah kuar so nothing can be done to put him back inside. the whole proses tak sakit pun sebab baby kuar naturally akuteran sikit je dah kuar abis ngn uri sumer. aku minta tgk baby, diorang letak dlm plastik kontener tu.. 'nurse tu cam takut2 je nk kasi, takut aku takleh kontrol kott..kecik je anak aku..besar tapak tgn tp sebab ada darah lagi aku tak berani pegang. semua dah cukup sifat.. dlm hati aku ckp takpe la baby, takde jodoh kita, mummy redha ko pergi, nnt kita jumpa lagi. KEBETULAN MLM TU MLM JUMAAT, NISFU SYAABAN so aku redha semua tu dgn harapan tahun baru moga2 diampun dosa2 aku yg byk selama ni, bertambah rahmat dan rezeki yg lebih lagii
aku tunggu more than 6mth baru stat concieve balik, aku ni penakut sikit, ikut ckp org tua2 bagi rahim betul2 kuat and sihat dulu
my story tak abis lagi.. masa tgh cuci darah semua mlm tu hubby sampai with mil, hubby pandang i dgn muka sedih, dia duduk sebelah, pegang tgn i and terus tunduk, mcm nk nangiss.. but i try senyum ja kat dia and gosok kepala dia aicehh mcm drama la pulak we both tak ckp apa..until besoknya. hubby balik rumah urus baby, mil stay jaga mlm tu. sakitnya bila rahim nk kecut balikk..
pg tu mak i sampai and mil balik rumah. bila dr dtg for morning check, dia tekan2 aje perut dia ckp dah kuar semua takyah dnc.. boleh blk dah.aku ni ikut je la mana tau apa kan.. mak aku lak jenis percaya abis ngn dr. mil kol tanya dr scan tak? suruh scan dulu konpem clear semua baru discaj.. but too late aku dah discaj. balik rumah bleeding cam biasa tp still sakit skit2 cam senggugut kat bawah perut. after a week mil bawa aku gi scan kat private spital, tgk2 ada sikit lagi tertinggal.. so we decide to buat dnc, actually sikit sgt dr kata takwat pun takpe cuma risiko incase ada infection takut boleh jadi cancer ke apa ka nnt. masa nk dnc tu dr tu boleh tersilap injek ubat bius, terus bengkak satu tgn. dah le kena bius taksedar, sedar2 tgn takleh angkat. mmg cuak ingatkan sikit2 je, balik rumah tak surut lansung, esoknya pi balik kat dr tu dia suruh xray kot2 patah ke (#$%&^%&^) bile masa lak tgn aku patahh mmg aku sedar lagi time dia cucuk tu and siap kata éh silap' !!! mak aku mmg angin le. dr kasi ubat sapu je and to come again after 3 days kalau tak surut lagi. pastu aku gi urut ngn jiran aku, dia ckp mmg salah urat, lepas urut surut sikit jek and still takleh gerak.. imagine dahle kena pantang, tgn sebelah takleh gerak aku rasa cam cacat je..nak sikat rambut pakai baju sume susahh sgt. dah le emosi tak betul time tu.. jap2 nangis, pastu nak marah org je, mmg tekanan perasan betull. pernah aku nk mandi pastu terhegeh2 buka baju and pegang gayung aku nangiss dlm bilik airr. pastu aku tanya mak aku > ada tak aku buat salah ngn dia?? kot2 la tgn aku ni pernah buat apa2 ke tu pasal tuhan balas balik cam gini.. mak aku pun nangis sama.. ko tau la dlm pantang kan mana buleh nangis kang meroyan tak pasal2.
lepas tu aku balik kg cuti dekat 2 minggu, kuasa tuhan sepupu aku kenalkan dgn sorang pakcik ni, aku pun pi berubat dgn dia, dia ckp ubat bius tu dah masuk kat dlm urat, pastu agaknya bocor kot dah absorb sikit kat dlm isi, nmpk kat dlm tu mcm dah lebam, aku cuak gila buatnya gangrene takke naya?!! pastu aku noticed ibu jari and tgn aku stat shrinking, nails look weird..ohmigod!! tgn aku sememangnya kebas je manjang setat dari awal lagi, tpk tgn lak rasa pedih ja, mcm kena api. kalau time sejuk laagi seksa. amboii panjangnya citer aku hehe. alhamdulillah lepas 3 hari surut tu hilang and back to normal, except for kebas sikit2 and tpk tgn still sakit. aku syukur sgt sebab dah boleh gerak sikit2. balik kl aku gi jumpa dr kat klinik biasa dia suspek carpal tunnel, then referred to gh buat test karan tu sume. aku pun byk research kat internet, konfem aku kena gangguan sarf. but dr sebenarnya takde ubat utk sakit saraf camni.. ubat yg dia bagi tu pun sebenarnya vitamin b12 je to speedup the healing. my body will heal itself and rebuild but it will takes times. dr tu siap kira utk aku, based on jarak tempat sakit which is masa tu dah ok sikit cuma kebas from elbow and below, for about 1inch will take i month, so roughly it will take another 6 months to heal. true after 6 month no more kebas but tpk tgn stil sakit sometimes esp bila sejuk.
alhamdulillah now i would say 99.5 back to normal even sometimes fingers stil rasa cam kebas2 sikit bila sejuk. aku tak salahkan dr tu, she's a human too bukan dia sengaja, and maybe vein aku sensitif ke..as long as im ok now is enough. kalau nk saman ke apa ke kesian periuk nasi dia lak, she's such a nice dr actually.
after more than 10 mths aku preknen balik, mmg takut sebab probably rahim tak kuat, karang kena ikat ke susah lak,masa tu again bila mlm nisfu syaaban aku teringat kisah dulu.. dah tu bila scan aje baby dok diam je, tido memanjang!! but as her growth progress steadily, heartbeat ok, im happy. but then when 30 weeks she looks quite small but still under kontrol, aku pun apa lagii makan byk2 next checkup naik berat aku and baby but still small compared to sepatutnya. dr ckp mungkin dia mmg jenis kecik kot. lastly genap 37w aku pegi another dr as to standby sebab dekat dgn rumah mil, mil soh aku dok sana sampai deliver. the night before aku siap gi tesco lagi but dlm kul 2 gitu cam rasa senggugut but very mild tp bila timing mcm sejam sekali, cuak gak but since still early aku rilek je, malas nk kejutkan hubby and mil. bila hubby bangun nk gi keja baru aku ckp ngn mil, pastu dekat pukul 7 tu tak sakit dah. kul 9 gi spital, 10.30 jumpa dr and bgtau nak register kat sini, and bgtau dia pasai sakit semlm, bila dr check rupanya dah terbuka 3cm, terus masuk labor room, kul 11 masuk ubat 1.30 selamat. alhamdulillah senang je except aku mamai so takleh teran kena vakumm, kalau tidak takyah jahit pun sebab baby mmg kecik.
memula mmg tak nangis but bila balik rumah mula le teringat..dah tu hubby lak ckp masa basuh@mandikan baby utk tanam tu dah nmpk gender mcm boy.. he's so cute.. i noticed ada iras2 hubby sebijik.. lepas tu lama gak takleh tgk hubby sure nangiss... kitorang siap kebumikan cam biasa and letak nama muhammad, amik syarat. hubby ckp kat aku 'takpe la, next time biar dpt baby girl lak mcm u '' .. laaagi le kuat aku nangiss alhamdullillah now happy with nuraisyah farhana, 4 mths.
baby..
mummy will always remember you
think i wat to keep it here..as reminiscence of what i have been thru..
mmg takleh terima sebab baby guling2 lagi masa scan tu. susu i pun dah ada cuma tak byk la rasa sakit kat breast and bila picit kuar sikit.
miscarried at 16 weeks. actually from 6th weeks i start spotting, so dr kasi hormon, baby looks healthy enough, bila scan je dok lompat2. i scan everymonth sbb kena close monitoring because of spotting and bleeding tu. lepas 12 weeks hepi sgt sebab org kata, even my dr pun ckp risiko nk gugur dah drop. pastu aku dgn tawakalnya balik kg. on the way back bleeding sikit, tak byk pun cam mula2 nk period je, terus di hosp, scan baby stil ok but kena tahan kat wad suruh rilek 2 hr, masa tu 15 weeks, kuar spital mlm tu cam biasa tak sakit apa cuma bila bgun pagi noticed ada fresh blood secoit kat spender, pastu gi kencing tak berani guna toilet bowl, aku kencing kat lantai je incase ada benda apa2 kuar kang, masa kencing tu kuar mcm ketul daging, not blood clot. aku dah nangis gila sebab selalunya kalau mcm tu dah takde le tu. aku kol bgtau mak aku dia pun sama2 nangis. aku simpan and bawa gi tunjuk kat dr. dr siap konpius lagi amenda (?!!!) nurse dah pasang iv, mil aku dah pesan awal2 kalau dr ckp kena buang redha je kalau simpan pun kalau tak sihat/tak elok nnt lagi susah, aku n hubby diam je.. dlm hati mcm taknak tp aku konpius. dlm hati dok doa biarlah selamat lagi anak aku.. petg tu baru scan tengok ya allah baby ok ja dok lompat2 sommersoult lagi kat dlm aku dah hepi2, mak aku on the way nk mai kl dah sume org hepi. dr ckp esok boleh balik.. yahuu
mlm tu aku suruh hubby temankan tp dia takut kena halau ngn pak gad, aku buat muka sedih pun tak jln gak. tp kejap2 dia kol borak2 ngn aku. around 10 pm aku rasa sakit, cuak dahh.. pastu noticed timing dia makin kerap. eventho aku takde pengalaman rasa contraction but dari pembacaan dan citer org aku rasa contraction le kot. kul 11 lebih aku tak tahan dah aku panggil nurse minta painkiller kalau boleh amik. tak lama lepas tu nurse dtg nk injek. dlm dok sakit tu siap boleh tanya nurse'are u sure boleh amik ni? " dia ckp dr kata boleh. dah injek pun tak hilang gak sakit tu, aku siap doa dlm hati kalau sakit sebab baby nk kuar aku redha cuma bglah aku tanda supaya aku dpt bertenang, kalau bukan sebab baby nk kuar aku rela sakit camna punn.. huhu.. masa tu mmg taktau la nk ckp apa, konpius, takut, sedih sume ada dahla berjuang sorang2. hubby on the way fr s.alam, rupanya mil aku pun dah tak sedap ati jek so dia ikut sama. dlm kul 12 gitu aku rasa ada benda kuar kat tut teruss panggil nurse. si nurse ni pulak budak lagi bila dia tgk terus mcm nk pengsan! aku lagi ler cuak tahap gaban tah apa la yg ada kat tut aku tu agaknya, dia pesan kat aku akak jgn buat apa2 tau!!, dr lak ada kes kat op theatre, nasib baik ada dr pelatih kebetulan dtg menyembang kat wad tu (aku dok wad kelas 1 spital selayang) kalau wad OnG dia maybe nurse dia well prepared to handle kes cam gini kot. nasible dr pelatih tu cam rilek je, and sejurus lepas tu dr OnG aku dtg, dia sloewly ckp kat aku baby dah kuar so nothing can be done to put him back inside. the whole proses tak sakit pun sebab baby kuar naturally akuteran sikit je dah kuar abis ngn uri sumer. aku minta tgk baby, diorang letak dlm plastik kontener tu.. 'nurse tu cam takut2 je nk kasi, takut aku takleh kontrol kott..kecik je anak aku..besar tapak tgn tp sebab ada darah lagi aku tak berani pegang. semua dah cukup sifat.. dlm hati aku ckp takpe la baby, takde jodoh kita, mummy redha ko pergi, nnt kita jumpa lagi. KEBETULAN MLM TU MLM JUMAAT, NISFU SYAABAN so aku redha semua tu dgn harapan tahun baru moga2 diampun dosa2 aku yg byk selama ni, bertambah rahmat dan rezeki yg lebih lagii
aku tunggu more than 6mth baru stat concieve balik, aku ni penakut sikit, ikut ckp org tua2 bagi rahim betul2 kuat and sihat dulu
my story tak abis lagi.. masa tgh cuci darah semua mlm tu hubby sampai with mil, hubby pandang i dgn muka sedih, dia duduk sebelah, pegang tgn i and terus tunduk, mcm nk nangiss.. but i try senyum ja kat dia and gosok kepala dia aicehh mcm drama la pulak we both tak ckp apa..until besoknya. hubby balik rumah urus baby, mil stay jaga mlm tu. sakitnya bila rahim nk kecut balikk..
pg tu mak i sampai and mil balik rumah. bila dr dtg for morning check, dia tekan2 aje perut dia ckp dah kuar semua takyah dnc.. boleh blk dah.aku ni ikut je la mana tau apa kan.. mak aku lak jenis percaya abis ngn dr. mil kol tanya dr scan tak? suruh scan dulu konpem clear semua baru discaj.. but too late aku dah discaj. balik rumah bleeding cam biasa tp still sakit skit2 cam senggugut kat bawah perut. after a week mil bawa aku gi scan kat private spital, tgk2 ada sikit lagi tertinggal.. so we decide to buat dnc, actually sikit sgt dr kata takwat pun takpe cuma risiko incase ada infection takut boleh jadi cancer ke apa ka nnt. masa nk dnc tu dr tu boleh tersilap injek ubat bius, terus bengkak satu tgn. dah le kena bius taksedar, sedar2 tgn takleh angkat. mmg cuak ingatkan sikit2 je, balik rumah tak surut lansung, esoknya pi balik kat dr tu dia suruh xray kot2 patah ke (#$%&^%&^) bile masa lak tgn aku patahh mmg aku sedar lagi time dia cucuk tu and siap kata éh silap' !!! mak aku mmg angin le. dr kasi ubat sapu je and to come again after 3 days kalau tak surut lagi. pastu aku gi urut ngn jiran aku, dia ckp mmg salah urat, lepas urut surut sikit jek and still takleh gerak.. imagine dahle kena pantang, tgn sebelah takleh gerak aku rasa cam cacat je..nak sikat rambut pakai baju sume susahh sgt. dah le emosi tak betul time tu.. jap2 nangis, pastu nak marah org je, mmg tekanan perasan betull. pernah aku nk mandi pastu terhegeh2 buka baju and pegang gayung aku nangiss dlm bilik airr. pastu aku tanya mak aku > ada tak aku buat salah ngn dia?? kot2 la tgn aku ni pernah buat apa2 ke tu pasal tuhan balas balik cam gini.. mak aku pun nangis sama.. ko tau la dlm pantang kan mana buleh nangis kang meroyan tak pasal2.
lepas tu aku balik kg cuti dekat 2 minggu, kuasa tuhan sepupu aku kenalkan dgn sorang pakcik ni, aku pun pi berubat dgn dia, dia ckp ubat bius tu dah masuk kat dlm urat, pastu agaknya bocor kot dah absorb sikit kat dlm isi, nmpk kat dlm tu mcm dah lebam, aku cuak gila buatnya gangrene takke naya?!! pastu aku noticed ibu jari and tgn aku stat shrinking, nails look weird..ohmigod!! tgn aku sememangnya kebas je manjang setat dari awal lagi, tpk tgn lak rasa pedih ja, mcm kena api. kalau time sejuk laagi seksa. amboii panjangnya citer aku hehe. alhamdulillah lepas 3 hari surut tu hilang and back to normal, except for kebas sikit2 and tpk tgn still sakit. aku syukur sgt sebab dah boleh gerak sikit2. balik kl aku gi jumpa dr kat klinik biasa dia suspek carpal tunnel, then referred to gh buat test karan tu sume. aku pun byk research kat internet, konfem aku kena gangguan sarf. but dr sebenarnya takde ubat utk sakit saraf camni.. ubat yg dia bagi tu pun sebenarnya vitamin b12 je to speedup the healing. my body will heal itself and rebuild but it will takes times. dr tu siap kira utk aku, based on jarak tempat sakit which is masa tu dah ok sikit cuma kebas from elbow and below, for about 1inch will take i month, so roughly it will take another 6 months to heal. true after 6 month no more kebas but tpk tgn stil sakit sometimes esp bila sejuk.
alhamdulillah now i would say 99.5 back to normal even sometimes fingers stil rasa cam kebas2 sikit bila sejuk. aku tak salahkan dr tu, she's a human too bukan dia sengaja, and maybe vein aku sensitif ke..as long as im ok now is enough. kalau nk saman ke apa ke kesian periuk nasi dia lak, she's such a nice dr actually.
after more than 10 mths aku preknen balik, mmg takut sebab probably rahim tak kuat, karang kena ikat ke susah lak,masa tu again bila mlm nisfu syaaban aku teringat kisah dulu.. dah tu bila scan aje baby dok diam je, tido memanjang!! but as her growth progress steadily, heartbeat ok, im happy. but then when 30 weeks she looks quite small but still under kontrol, aku pun apa lagii makan byk2 next checkup naik berat aku and baby but still small compared to sepatutnya. dr ckp mungkin dia mmg jenis kecik kot. lastly genap 37w aku pegi another dr as to standby sebab dekat dgn rumah mil, mil soh aku dok sana sampai deliver. the night before aku siap gi tesco lagi but dlm kul 2 gitu cam rasa senggugut but very mild tp bila timing mcm sejam sekali, cuak gak but since still early aku rilek je, malas nk kejutkan hubby and mil. bila hubby bangun nk gi keja baru aku ckp ngn mil, pastu dekat pukul 7 tu tak sakit dah. kul 9 gi spital, 10.30 jumpa dr and bgtau nak register kat sini, and bgtau dia pasai sakit semlm, bila dr check rupanya dah terbuka 3cm, terus masuk labor room, kul 11 masuk ubat 1.30 selamat. alhamdulillah senang je except aku mamai so takleh teran kena vakumm, kalau tidak takyah jahit pun sebab baby mmg kecik.
memula mmg tak nangis but bila balik rumah mula le teringat..dah tu hubby lak ckp masa basuh@mandikan baby utk tanam tu dah nmpk gender mcm boy.. he's so cute.. i noticed ada iras2 hubby sebijik.. lepas tu lama gak takleh tgk hubby sure nangiss... kitorang siap kebumikan cam biasa and letak nama muhammad, amik syarat. hubby ckp kat aku 'takpe la, next time biar dpt baby girl lak mcm u '' .. laaagi le kuat aku nangiss alhamdullillah now happy with nuraisyah farhana, 4 mths.
baby..
mummy will always remember you
coffee anyone?
this round of pregnancy sees me craving for coffee
i know caffein is not good for pregnant mom but i just cudnt help it.
it starts at first when i cant put any drink into my tekak, end up i tried the black coffee and it works! from then, there goes my coffee crazess
every outing will not be complete without a stop at coffee joint,
sampai my doter pun dah accustomed to coffee haha
there's one time, she pulled 2 chairs together and said ' ni aisyah nk minum kopii..'
last weekend we tried the infamous oldtown kopitiam.. selalu tgk ramai je org so why dun we sample it ourselve kan..
we had the chicken chor fun (kot)cudnt remember its real tajuk, toast, curry mee, hot mocha ipoh white coffe, ipoh white coffee hot nad err tak ingat la wat another drink that hubby had
the verdict :
the coffe was too strong for my liking
and it was not a wise decision to mix it up with choc huhu
but the chicken soup and curry mee was marveles
the toast was the biggest dissappoinment - check out the pic yourselve and u'l know why
see the thin railway of butter? hmm
maybe they'r promoting healthy lifestyle kot hehe
the soup is good, nevertheless.. the day's savior
conclusion: i wont go near this coffeshop again hehe, as long as pak li, uncle lim are around..
the not-so-satisfied me
uh uhhh i look fat!!!
while we r there, hubby tells me story on how the outlet come about
apparently the original ipoh white coffe shop was at the brink of closing down, but one of the loyal customer, a malay guy wanted to buy the shop. the owner asked him why he want the shop, the business is doing bad. the guy told the owner that now its becoming a hype in town for drinking coffee and kopitiam and all bla blaa..
so the owner didnt get to close his shop, instead he embark on that man's idea to expand his business. he start by making the instant coffee packets and sells them to supermarket (do u remember suddenly there's a flock of instant coffee in the market in last 7-8 years?)
after about a year, he manage to locate that poor guy (who was actually almost a branckrupt himself) and paid him compensation for his idea, a mere sum of like 50k or sumthing. that man is just satisfied with that, he said that that's what his rezeki were meant to be.. but he got the priviliged of dining for free at any outlet, no matter how many patron he bring with him.
i dunno how true this story is.. so dun quote me okay
i know caffein is not good for pregnant mom but i just cudnt help it.
it starts at first when i cant put any drink into my tekak, end up i tried the black coffee and it works! from then, there goes my coffee crazess
every outing will not be complete without a stop at coffee joint,
sampai my doter pun dah accustomed to coffee haha
there's one time, she pulled 2 chairs together and said ' ni aisyah nk minum kopii..'
last weekend we tried the infamous oldtown kopitiam.. selalu tgk ramai je org so why dun we sample it ourselve kan..
we had the chicken chor fun (kot)cudnt remember its real tajuk, toast, curry mee, hot mocha ipoh white coffe, ipoh white coffee hot nad err tak ingat la wat another drink that hubby had
the verdict :
the coffe was too strong for my liking
and it was not a wise decision to mix it up with choc huhu
but the chicken soup and curry mee was marveles
the toast was the biggest dissappoinment - check out the pic yourselve and u'l know why
see the thin railway of butter? hmm
maybe they'r promoting healthy lifestyle kot hehe
the soup is good, nevertheless.. the day's savior
conclusion: i wont go near this coffeshop again hehe, as long as pak li, uncle lim are around..
the not-so-satisfied me
uh uhhh i look fat!!!
while we r there, hubby tells me story on how the outlet come about
apparently the original ipoh white coffe shop was at the brink of closing down, but one of the loyal customer, a malay guy wanted to buy the shop. the owner asked him why he want the shop, the business is doing bad. the guy told the owner that now its becoming a hype in town for drinking coffee and kopitiam and all bla blaa..
so the owner didnt get to close his shop, instead he embark on that man's idea to expand his business. he start by making the instant coffee packets and sells them to supermarket (do u remember suddenly there's a flock of instant coffee in the market in last 7-8 years?)
after about a year, he manage to locate that poor guy (who was actually almost a branckrupt himself) and paid him compensation for his idea, a mere sum of like 50k or sumthing. that man is just satisfied with that, he said that that's what his rezeki were meant to be.. but he got the priviliged of dining for free at any outlet, no matter how many patron he bring with him.
i dunno how true this story is.. so dun quote me okay
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