did you ever look at your other self and suddenly it appear to you that,
despite all the machoness, the garangness and the veto power they like to apply to you..
deep inside, they're soo fragile..like a small child reaching out to you..
deep down they want to hold on to you,
they looking for your shoulder to lean on and pour all their sorrow
they are afraid.. fear that they are not able to carry the heavy burden and responsibility of being the head of family
but at the same time their ego make them unable to let you now about it

to my dear man of my life
i love you for your goodness
i love you for your weaknessess
i love you for the man you are
i just love you for a reason i cannot understand myself.

aisyah really like the cryon i bought her. so apalagi, sikit2 aku umpan with that le haha.. if nak distract her i simply ask her to draw.. or make it as reward hihi


ecah's drawing

and so touching.. she already understand sujud means solat.

finally.. we meet!

akhirnya sampai juga jodoh ku bertemu kawan2
memula cikdee sms nk ke the curve, but since i wasnt prepared to go out that early. manage to be there at 4+ pm, after late lunch - hb and adik ipar pi mancing the night before and only came home at 4am or so,so just letthem sleep for a while.
hubby drop me on the way to shah alam to send adik ipar then proceed to look for kedai ketuk to repair the car.
by then,
guess cikdee already left. i dun bring any stroller, hope to borrow the curve punye but biasala wiken mmg takde harapan la. luckily ecah was being good. she enjoy walking, its quite nice having girls outing with her hehe.. she loovee shoping! in fact sebok nk masuk kedai beg lagi tuh hehe
at 6 finally met them, and surprisingly kanak2 riang ria - Qayyum n muiz were there as well and their fabulos mums!
as if janji pulak, mostly were wearing red..
had fun with you guys.. really hope we can do it more often.
** have to edit the pictures la dearr..

Andainya Ku Tahu

Andai Ku tahu
Kapan tiba ajalku
Ku akan memohon
Tuhan tolong panjangkan umurku

Andai Ku tahu
Kapan tiba masaku
Ku akan memohon
Tuhan jangan kau ambil nyawaku

Chorus:
Aku takut
Akan semua dosa-dosa ku
Aku takut
Dosa yang terus membayangiku

Mungkin tahu
MalaikatMu kan menjemputku
Izinkan aku
Mengucap kata tobat PadaMu

Ampuni aku
Dari segala dosa2 ku
Ampuni aku
Menangis minta tobat PadaMu

Aku manusia
Yang takut neraka
Namun aku juga
Tak pantas di surga

Andai Ku tahu
Kapan tiba ajalku
Izinkan aku
Mengucap kata tobat PadaMu

2 days before Aidilfitri

huhu..
today sungguh malas mau kerja
partly because most people are already on raya leave.. while i will have to work until tomorow - the very last day of ramadhan.
esok dunno la how the plan, whether nk balik straight fr ofis - which i planned to get off earlier, 1/2 day la hopefully
aiyyoooo packing baru like err 30%? baju aisyah sudah masuk beg, except her baju kurung yg aku gatei nk letak beads.baru siap yg testing punya, but now dah sntuk sgt nk jahit kat her real bajuraya. semlm sempat jahit sikit jek.. ku rasa2 aku bakal buka semula and let it bare jek ekeke
baju aku sah2 tak sempat nk jahit. takpe lah..
hope we dun get caught in the bad bad jem kat plus hiway.

today:
** i learned that i cannot trust people when they say 'no thanks..or tak payah la..' when i offered them anything. whatever i want to give, just give. whether they want to appreciate it or not, up to them. i dun want only to hear them complaining later..
** and i also learned that we can never depend on man when it comes to the art or courtesy of giving..
** and i learned that if i want something, i should ask for it, no hint2 and then frustrated when people dun get my hints <- ni based on what people did to me.. oh pleaseee!!

27 Ramadhan 1428

semlm balik from s.alam ku noticed the night was clear, maybe just my imagination but it seems 'brighter'.. but hubby says 'mana ada..kan nk ujan ni..'
true, it rains later but i really thought that the night sky was so clear, not hazy like usual. hmm i thot it cud b THAT night.
you know, the signs are all there.. and i was sooo sleepy and tired that i go straight to bed as soon as we reach home. but my sleep was disturbed because aisyah dont want to go to sleep. hubby pulak was not feeling well.
this morning i see the sky was clear, maybe the after rain effect. but the morning sun was whitish and birds chirping happily..
maybe.. who knows... maybe..
akulah manusia yg kerugian ituu..

and today officially i declared as the forgetful day sedunia..
there's incidence so funny this morning ekekeke
buleh tak makcik rempit forgot her helmet haha
fortunatley not far fr home i realized eh awat today berangin semcm je ni, why aa myhead seems lighter..
sekali.. Allah ku lupa pakai helmet daa!!
jenuh kena gelak dgn pak mertuaku

Mak and makngah

ececeh berangan konon2 kat turki tuh ekeke

kedai nasi kandar kari kepala ikan top kat pj

that's is zainul nasi kandar at building kaler kuninig next to a&w pj

somi ku gian memancing di bulan posa..

2 3 menjak ni hb suka memancing la pulak
kena pulak adik aku n my kazen's hb share the same interest.. ada geng la tu
derang lak dah kira ada experience, even tho not really otai.. so laki ku pun seronok la dok menuntut ilmu memancing.
yg tak besnya they will go for hours.. bosannya aku kat rumah
nak ikut? laaagi bosan ku rasa
normally if derang bw balik ikan, mmg ku suruh sila siang sendiri ye.. nk tolong masak sikit2 tu boleh la.. bab siang mmg ku malas, tambah pulak dgn hanyir ikan air tawar tu tau je la kan
last week, finally adik aku berjaya naikkan ikan rohu (agaknya la..) 4kg, besar gilerr, alsmost as tall as aisyah.
ekeke sampai muntah2 laki ku siang..